11-24-2018, 02:52 PM
I've felt pretty down lately. Went out Thanksgiving eve with some friends. It was good, but I just felt unfocused. Like I was there sort of enjoying myself but another part was detached. Had trouble integrating into conversations. Also just didn't feel much desire. Just very meh. I was dd for the night which doesn't bother me. But I wonder how much alcohol helped other people have a good time.
Sometimes I feel like a real outsider even among my friends at times. I don't know how much of that is in my head, blockage from fear, whatever else. But I'm just keeping on with uslm and taking it one day at a time. Sometimes it's good to acknowledge it's not always the outside change. Sometimes there's stuff going on in the inside that's also a lot of hardwork.
But on a positive note there was a DJ/producer at one of the bars I talked to towards closing time. Swapped SoundClouds. He showed some interest in collabing so that could be cool. Still not confident in my stuff, so it's always hard considering working with others when I can't even really vouch for my own stuff.
Sometimes I feel like a real outsider even among my friends at times. I don't know how much of that is in my head, blockage from fear, whatever else. But I'm just keeping on with uslm and taking it one day at a time. Sometimes it's good to acknowledge it's not always the outside change. Sometimes there's stuff going on in the inside that's also a lot of hardwork.
But on a positive note there was a DJ/producer at one of the bars I talked to towards closing time. Swapped SoundClouds. He showed some interest in collabing so that could be cool. Still not confident in my stuff, so it's always hard considering working with others when I can't even really vouch for my own stuff.
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