Mystic Pymp on DMSI 2.4→2.5→3.0.1A→3.1A/B→3.2A/B→3.3D→3.3.1D

[Mystic Pymp]

I've decided to stop listening to DMSI for a while in anticipation for a new version. I remember it was a thing with earlier transitions and while I didn't find much discussion on the topic I guess it holds true. I also decided I will try new LTU once it comes out. I guess it will take some time to develop after DMSI 3.3 is out so I will have time to test it before making final decision.

Putting off DMSI was not easy on me, confidence and productivity dropped. I will manage, it's just that I'd rather have this transition phase happen some more tranquil time.

I wrote to my gf today, asking if is would like to talk and maybe come with me to the party next Friday. We ended up in argument with her claiming I don't care anymore and pretty much ending the whole relationship. Maybe it's for the better, I'm not sure if I wanted to keep with this mess but at least part of me wanted to fight to the last.

I was thinking about my fears a lot recently, mainly due to discussions about FRM on the forums. It didn't occur to me before but I still think about myself as the loser virgin I was 3 years ago. It's strange but it's something that grew on me so much that I pretty much personalize myself with now. It will take some work to get me out of this mindset.

And I'm not talking about "Oh, we broke, I won't find another gf" because I know I will, and probably plenty more of them in the future. I'm talking about this strange view of myself deep within. This needs to stop.