I must be around mid stage 4... This stage is pretty much eventless... or I don't feel like writing down minor events that are devoid of meanings related to the AM6 journey...
Except one thing. I do defend every inch of my rights... and sometimes not in the most refined way...
This has the effect of annoying people around me including family members. Dealing with my sister is particularly challenging...
I feel totally entitled to stay firm in my position but there should be a way, maybe by staying calm, to hold a position firmly while staying calmer in a way that the person that I am arguing with has no other choice than to accept my position and be happy...
In some situations, I still get upset like I was in the first 2 stages. This is not the best way to react to shit test thrown at me...
UPDATE: This is funny as hell... I started to write down this small journal log... and then I had a bunch of flashes of experiences in the last 2-3 weeks...
Life has been hard with me lately... My mom that did passed away. A sewer backup sinister in the basement. and I was desperately needing a payment of few thousands dollars last week simply to pay the regular bills to find out that it would be delayed by 2 weeks because I did a single digit error when I communicated my bank account info for the transfer. This makes me worried about finance. I was planning to do social activities to change my mind and relax a bit that I did finally cancelled because I had no cash. I got a stomach flu this week. Yeah and I'm not even telling about the harassment from a municipal inspector that I suspect being a vicious lying psychopath...
When you consider all of that... maybe it is normal that my fuse is rather short... and overall, I'm keeping my calm not that bad despite some small burst of irritability...
Except one thing. I do defend every inch of my rights... and sometimes not in the most refined way...
This has the effect of annoying people around me including family members. Dealing with my sister is particularly challenging...
I feel totally entitled to stay firm in my position but there should be a way, maybe by staying calm, to hold a position firmly while staying calmer in a way that the person that I am arguing with has no other choice than to accept my position and be happy...
In some situations, I still get upset like I was in the first 2 stages. This is not the best way to react to shit test thrown at me...
UPDATE: This is funny as hell... I started to write down this small journal log... and then I had a bunch of flashes of experiences in the last 2-3 weeks...
Life has been hard with me lately... My mom that did passed away. A sewer backup sinister in the basement. and I was desperately needing a payment of few thousands dollars last week simply to pay the regular bills to find out that it would be delayed by 2 weeks because I did a single digit error when I communicated my bank account info for the transfer. This makes me worried about finance. I was planning to do social activities to change my mind and relax a bit that I did finally cancelled because I had no cash. I got a stomach flu this week. Yeah and I'm not even telling about the harassment from a municipal inspector that I suspect being a vicious lying psychopath...
When you consider all of that... maybe it is normal that my fuse is rather short... and overall, I'm keeping my calm not that bad despite some small burst of irritability...
