11-21-2018, 01:22 AM
Matt, I'd like to share something with you. I listened to about 4 of your songs yesterday on Soundcloud before heading in to work. I actually remembered and felt something while listening.
Roughly 20 years ago, I was on a music scholarship at my community college. I didn't have life goals at that time, but I could play my French horn for them, and it paid for school. This is when and where I did a lot of music mixing in my head. And......I failed music theory. Fear of success won that time.
While listening to your songs, I read the titles, and tried to pick up the feel of each to see how they clicked. I suddenly remembered my college days, where I lived in fear daily. I remembered how I'd feel a beat, follow it maybe 2-10 minutes, and consistently, repeatedly, and even daily fear would kill my ambition and dreaming to create and expand. This was all in my head yesterday, but I believe I sensed a familiar hesitancy in a few of your songs. Did I sense this correctly? If not, please let me know. I, myself, can be very sensitive and attached to personal creations. I'm desiring to be objective.
Why I brought this up is my willingness to open up and be creative is surfacing once again. I feel a strong motivation to achieve and succeed on USLM, and even after listening to your songs.......I imagined singing and rapping (what?!) to an old black coworker who loves to laugh and socialize, me imagining myself making stuff up on the spot. Fear has sat on my creativity for eons, and I'm loving this door opening wide.
We're both INFP's, and I'd like to encourage you in your music creations.
Note: I said I failed music theory. It was like taking chemistry, but naming it "theory". I'd go back now.
Roughly 20 years ago, I was on a music scholarship at my community college. I didn't have life goals at that time, but I could play my French horn for them, and it paid for school. This is when and where I did a lot of music mixing in my head. And......I failed music theory. Fear of success won that time.
While listening to your songs, I read the titles, and tried to pick up the feel of each to see how they clicked. I suddenly remembered my college days, where I lived in fear daily. I remembered how I'd feel a beat, follow it maybe 2-10 minutes, and consistently, repeatedly, and even daily fear would kill my ambition and dreaming to create and expand. This was all in my head yesterday, but I believe I sensed a familiar hesitancy in a few of your songs. Did I sense this correctly? If not, please let me know. I, myself, can be very sensitive and attached to personal creations. I'm desiring to be objective.
Why I brought this up is my willingness to open up and be creative is surfacing once again. I feel a strong motivation to achieve and succeed on USLM, and even after listening to your songs.......I imagined singing and rapping (what?!) to an old black coworker who loves to laugh and socialize, me imagining myself making stuff up on the spot. Fear has sat on my creativity for eons, and I'm loving this door opening wide.
We're both INFP's, and I'd like to encourage you in your music creations.
Note: I said I failed music theory. It was like taking chemistry, but naming it "theory". I'd go back now.
I want to be FREE!
