(11-15-2018, 03:49 AM)mat422 Wrote: I just resumed listening to uslm after my two day break yesterday. I have to say in those two days my mood and productivity dropped off a lot. With all the crap that's been going on at work I need all the support I can get to make it through the day. Had one of our add-ons we use with our main program just decide to completely start throwing random internal errors. Of course this happens at 4:20. 10 minutes before I have to leave. I wouldn't have cared any other day, but this particular day I had to go walk dogs after work.
Had to configure a small SQL condition for something yesterday but my brain straight up did not work. Like I was trying to figure out the solution and just got more and more stressed out. I think I'm just exhausted mentally from everything falling apart. Also I think I still have strong fears associated with taking on difficult tasks that cause a sort of performance anxiety. And from research I've seen anxiety destroys short term memory which is kind of necessary for formulating solutions. So it's not that I'm dumb, I just have trouble thinking sometimes.
I`m still on my second day break but I noticed the same. I was actually waiting to see if anyone else was going to have the same experience. For me, the productivity dropped as well. Though maybe not as much as yours. And I noticed an increase in negative thinking like "I`m not sure if this is gonna work. What if it fails? There`s so many things that I have to do, it`s overwhelming." Whereas when I`m listening to the sub my thinking is mostly positive "I can handle it. One day at a time. If it fails, I`ll adjust."
