One thing I wasn't really anticipating with USLM3, although I really should have. Strengthening my relationships with everyone around me I care about. It seems odd that I can care about someone and distance myself at the same time, but that's been a recurring pattern in my life. I've mentioned in the past I was on the avoidant spectrum when it comes to relationships. Well at the heart of that is fear and getting rid of this fear is helping me get closer to people and in turn show more of myself.
Fear has been like a great wall divide between me and other people. Even when I overcame it or pushed past it, I'd find myself unable to bridge this weird communication gap. Always a constant feeling of wanting get away from someone or minimize interaction before they were able to sort of bridge that gap themselves.
But as far as success goes. Ask anyone who's been successful and they'll tell you strong supportive relationships are important. You can only get those if you're willing to let go of the fear that prevents them.
There's a lot about me I've been aware of for years now. But it feels like now it's actually being resolved. It's one thing being aware of your issues, but it's a completely separate thing actually moving past them to a point where you don't have to cope with them. And fear has always been my biggest issue.
Also moving my speakers across my room where I can't touch them at night. I've had them next to my head on both sides for a bit now so I could get the full stereo effect. But I've had some mornings where the speaker is upside down and muffled by a pillow, on the floor, pointed in the wrong direction, etc. I wasn't getting a good nights rest because I was constantly worried about making sure I didn't bump my speakers in the middle of the night or muffle them. With USLM3, given that we have zero minutes of silence now for ASRB I feel it's really important for it to be as consistent as possible.
Fear has been like a great wall divide between me and other people. Even when I overcame it or pushed past it, I'd find myself unable to bridge this weird communication gap. Always a constant feeling of wanting get away from someone or minimize interaction before they were able to sort of bridge that gap themselves.
But as far as success goes. Ask anyone who's been successful and they'll tell you strong supportive relationships are important. You can only get those if you're willing to let go of the fear that prevents them.
There's a lot about me I've been aware of for years now. But it feels like now it's actually being resolved. It's one thing being aware of your issues, but it's a completely separate thing actually moving past them to a point where you don't have to cope with them. And fear has always been my biggest issue.
Also moving my speakers across my room where I can't touch them at night. I've had them next to my head on both sides for a bit now so I could get the full stereo effect. But I've had some mornings where the speaker is upside down and muffled by a pillow, on the floor, pointed in the wrong direction, etc. I wasn't getting a good nights rest because I was constantly worried about making sure I didn't bump my speakers in the middle of the night or muffle them. With USLM3, given that we have zero minutes of silence now for ASRB I feel it's really important for it to be as consistent as possible.
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