10-30-2018, 06:50 AM
(10-30-2018, 06:28 AM)Darwin Wrote: Level up: New fear revealed, the more success I get and the greater ease I feel the harder it will be when it disappears. I have been trying to control the amount of success I experience or attempt to feel like it is in my control so I don't experience too much and end up feeling pain as a result. It's clear I'm slowing down execution because of this fear.
This fear feels like something stuck in my throat - kind of like the feeling you get when on the verge of crying.
There is a way to unlock this fear from my being - I don't know what it is. Also combined with this, and possibly at the root of this is a strong, I guess limiting, belief that there are constraints on existence, a balance and a destiny, that when the will is directed at pulling too far in one direction creates an equal and opposite rebound in the other direction. There is a harmony to be established through grace and acceptance of what is and the will should be diverted to this rather than the desires of the ego.
I mean what the hell. Where does this come from.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
