10-26-2018, 06:53 PM
Since the last post, I have been generally calm, except for one situation in which I got to worrying about something in particular and felt a lot of fear about it because it seemed to be an impossible situation. The more I tried to find a way out, the more upset it got me, because I couldn't see one. Then I got quiet, which usually indicates that something is wrong, and GF noted this and asked what was wrong.
I proceeded to rant out my fears and frustrations to her, and her response, bless her heart, was to show me that my fears were based on having forgotten a couple of things, and that everything was going to be okay. That woman is pure gold.
Today she and I went to a wire wrapping class that we signed up for with the local rock and gem club, and we made wire wrap bracelets for ourselves during the first class. Simple, but very interesting. I made mine from brass wire, and she hers from copper wire. She took longer to make hers than I did because she was having trouble getting some aspects right, but the instructor was very good with her and patiently showed her what she needed to understand and encouraged her. In fact she did exactly what I was thinking I would have to do, which pleased me a great deal, because most people don't teach my GF the way she needs to be taught.
We ended up with finished wire wrap bracelets, and GF was very pleased with having succeeded in doing this. She came from a family who always tore her down. I have been trying to show her that she can do anything, and this was certainly helpful evidence for my case.
At dinner, she told me that she can see USLM2 working in the fact that she responded completely differently to the experience that she had trying to make the bracelet than she normally would have. She said that normally, she would feel hopeless and give up in frustration quickly because she felt that it needed to be perfect, immediately, regardless of how much practice, skill or understanding she had. This time, she accepted it as being okay to be and do less than perfection, and continued on.
That is big.
Today, we had one of the best days I can remember. Then, at the gym, she started having random sharp pains in her foot that prevented her from working out, even though she tried for about 10 minutes to work out regardless. I was not really interested in working out for the remaining 40 minutes while she sat around bored out of her skull, so I just ended the session and we came home. This has her significantly upset; she believes that this is subconscious self sabotage, because recently she has been through a series of really weird, random events that have forced her to stop doing what she was doing to get to success. Everything from strange allergic reactions to unexplained infections. I don't know what to think, but I can definitely see that USLM2 is having a very positive effect on her, on me and on our relationship.
I am significantly tempted to build USLM with v3 of FRM in it, but I have decided that I am going to resist that temptation and instead continue working on DMSI. I have been making a lot of very important progress lately. Have been taking some things from B17 that constitute very advanced, very powerful ASS/ART modules and optimizing them even further and then adding them to the skeleton script of DMSI 3.3. I think this will make a noticeable difference.
There are only a couple more such statements that I want to add, and then I am going to start working on the auric modulation scripting for a while. After that I will be adding from the list of things to add again, and at the current pace I am working, we should have a significant upgrade in 3.3.
Overall, USLM2 has me feeling positive and steadily so. There are things that I am apparently working on, but the predominant result is positivity and success based actions. I even started talking today about cleaning and de-cluttering my house, which is almost unheard of for me!
Would be nice if I was having money show up as a result, too.
I proceeded to rant out my fears and frustrations to her, and her response, bless her heart, was to show me that my fears were based on having forgotten a couple of things, and that everything was going to be okay. That woman is pure gold.
Today she and I went to a wire wrapping class that we signed up for with the local rock and gem club, and we made wire wrap bracelets for ourselves during the first class. Simple, but very interesting. I made mine from brass wire, and she hers from copper wire. She took longer to make hers than I did because she was having trouble getting some aspects right, but the instructor was very good with her and patiently showed her what she needed to understand and encouraged her. In fact she did exactly what I was thinking I would have to do, which pleased me a great deal, because most people don't teach my GF the way she needs to be taught.
We ended up with finished wire wrap bracelets, and GF was very pleased with having succeeded in doing this. She came from a family who always tore her down. I have been trying to show her that she can do anything, and this was certainly helpful evidence for my case.
At dinner, she told me that she can see USLM2 working in the fact that she responded completely differently to the experience that she had trying to make the bracelet than she normally would have. She said that normally, she would feel hopeless and give up in frustration quickly because she felt that it needed to be perfect, immediately, regardless of how much practice, skill or understanding she had. This time, she accepted it as being okay to be and do less than perfection, and continued on.
That is big.
Today, we had one of the best days I can remember. Then, at the gym, she started having random sharp pains in her foot that prevented her from working out, even though she tried for about 10 minutes to work out regardless. I was not really interested in working out for the remaining 40 minutes while she sat around bored out of her skull, so I just ended the session and we came home. This has her significantly upset; she believes that this is subconscious self sabotage, because recently she has been through a series of really weird, random events that have forced her to stop doing what she was doing to get to success. Everything from strange allergic reactions to unexplained infections. I don't know what to think, but I can definitely see that USLM2 is having a very positive effect on her, on me and on our relationship.
I am significantly tempted to build USLM with v3 of FRM in it, but I have decided that I am going to resist that temptation and instead continue working on DMSI. I have been making a lot of very important progress lately. Have been taking some things from B17 that constitute very advanced, very powerful ASS/ART modules and optimizing them even further and then adding them to the skeleton script of DMSI 3.3. I think this will make a noticeable difference.
There are only a couple more such statements that I want to add, and then I am going to start working on the auric modulation scripting for a while. After that I will be adding from the list of things to add again, and at the current pace I am working, we should have a significant upgrade in 3.3.
Overall, USLM2 has me feeling positive and steadily so. There are things that I am apparently working on, but the predominant result is positivity and success based actions. I even started talking today about cleaning and de-cluttering my house, which is almost unheard of for me!
Would be nice if I was having money show up as a result, too.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
