Findingme's E2 journal

[findingme]

No, I've not seen my daughter yet. As I began writing, I felt anger surface at my ex in her own emotional crisis trying to help our daughter when she herself is coming unglued. I texted my ex twice in the last hour about my daughter, and her last response is she's trying to deal with a "melt down panic attack", and couldn't talk right now. Was she referring to herself, or our daughter? I don't know, but I'll dodge the bulldog (and BS), not replying.

I've been kicking myself the last 12 hours since 1. my daughter was discharged yesterday. 2. My ex requested her own mother show up first--for her sake, and also for our daughter. And 3. I hate being around my ex MIL since she's always judged me and disrespected me.

I'm trying to focus on my daughter, and my ex is seeing her problems. WTF?

Originally, my ex said she wanted to shield our daughter from too many people. I'm having to plow through the BS given, and it's pissing me off. She's trying to protect herself, not my daughter. I have no respect for her presently

I'd jump on a plane, but it'd create unneeded drama, and deny my daughter the peace she needs. Such a fucking stupid............

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