10-19-2018, 03:22 AM
I'm in what I perceive to be a repetitive, but hopefully ascendant, cycle since I've been doing 5.5g subs.
(1) slow start with sparks of results and a sense of something working deeply on me
(2) seeking out supporting information, books and other influences to help guide the development of a new way of being with increasingly noticeable differences
(3) realising in a lot of detail why I'm holding back from pursuing the sub goals properly, or rather realising with a strong sense of certainty and finding out how to over come them
(4a.) working out how to over come this issue, with the sub's support and exploding with results or;
(4b.) not quite integrating how to overcome the issue, partially executing getting some results
(5.) carrying on with things not being noticeable - at this stage, I've stopped properly doing the sub though, I'm using it intermittently or not quite in line with the rules. I've started behaving in ways inconsistent with executing which have crept in subtly, the odd cigarette, eating bad food which leads to brain fog etc.
Finally I refresh, either I start a new sub or take a break from the current sub.
Anyway on USLMax. As I mentioned in Shannons journal journal - opportunities are coming forth in complex ways. I've been told about two jobs now which quite match the criteria I had for leaving my current job. However I'm feeling unconfident about moving from where I am so I will have to pick up momentum on going for these jobs before I get in my own head.
(1) slow start with sparks of results and a sense of something working deeply on me
(2) seeking out supporting information, books and other influences to help guide the development of a new way of being with increasingly noticeable differences
(3) realising in a lot of detail why I'm holding back from pursuing the sub goals properly, or rather realising with a strong sense of certainty and finding out how to over come them
(4a.) working out how to over come this issue, with the sub's support and exploding with results or;
(4b.) not quite integrating how to overcome the issue, partially executing getting some results
(5.) carrying on with things not being noticeable - at this stage, I've stopped properly doing the sub though, I'm using it intermittently or not quite in line with the rules. I've started behaving in ways inconsistent with executing which have crept in subtly, the odd cigarette, eating bad food which leads to brain fog etc.
Finally I refresh, either I start a new sub or take a break from the current sub.
Anyway on USLMax. As I mentioned in Shannons journal journal - opportunities are coming forth in complex ways. I've been told about two jobs now which quite match the criteria I had for leaving my current job. However I'm feeling unconfident about moving from where I am so I will have to pick up momentum on going for these jobs before I get in my own head.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
