10-16-2018, 11:52 PM
Ultra Success/Luck Maximizer 5.5g.
-Paul1131 said this here
Quote:This thing is definitely making me more social and less shy. I was painfully shy as a kid and throughout my teenage years through my mid twenties. I had thought that I had gotten over it a while ago. Partly through use of subs, and partly through just forcing myself to do it. However, (and I am just now realizing this now). It was forced and wooden with people I didn’t know well. I kept the talk to a minimum and just interacted as much as I had to. Nothing really felt natural unless I was among close friends and family. I didn’t really recognize that this was me working around a social phobia rather than actually dealing with it. I didn’t reciognise how much of my aloofness was the old fear.
That’s changing though. This afternoon I woke up and went to get my hair cut. I bantered with the lady who cut my hair when I used to just kind of sit there before. I’d never met this girl, but joking with her was easy and I enjoyed it. I put actual inflections in my voice (before I used to keep it as neutral as possible. I have an awesome voice and hadn’t been using it).
Then I went to the grocery store, and wound up having a long, light conversation with the checkout girl. She was cute, and about half my age. She told me a lot about herself without me asking, and was playing with her hair and doing all of that stuff. I am not trying to get that to happen, but it is kind of fun...
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