09-29-2018, 10:34 AM
Hey Infinite,
I've not responded much to your recent replies, but......I'm seeing myself avoiding other women in my life, and you popped up in my thread. This morning I realized, gently, what I'm doing.
I'm still trying to avoid failing. It's why I didn't reply back. It's the same thinking I wrote about last week, associating any woman with my mother. With women, I get nervous when in casual conversations with attractive women thinking about the negative possibilities (rejection mostly) I could create in the minutes I'm around them.
I need to admit this for ME, as my secrets aren't fun and are not helping me.
Fearing failing is still on the table for me, and I'm going to apologize to, and share with my buddy tonight why I fought him last week. It's the same root.
I apologize for leaving you hanging in our discussion.
I've not responded much to your recent replies, but......I'm seeing myself avoiding other women in my life, and you popped up in my thread. This morning I realized, gently, what I'm doing.
I'm still trying to avoid failing. It's why I didn't reply back. It's the same thinking I wrote about last week, associating any woman with my mother. With women, I get nervous when in casual conversations with attractive women thinking about the negative possibilities (rejection mostly) I could create in the minutes I'm around them.
I need to admit this for ME, as my secrets aren't fun and are not helping me.
Fearing failing is still on the table for me, and I'm going to apologize to, and share with my buddy tonight why I fought him last week. It's the same root.
I apologize for leaving you hanging in our discussion.
I want to be FREE!
