09-27-2018, 01:00 AM
Infinite,
I'll see her this weekend, and I was reminded in a daily reader that me worrying about tomorrow is not helpful to anyone, me mostly. But I'll likely bring up something I've not asked lately.
Also, I'll share this about my postings. I used to post on another healing forum over 10 years ago. For me, writing is much more personal, meaning I choose to be honest. Therapists and even 12 step programs will encourage daily journaling, and for me, it works. I still have some paper journals I wrote in 25 years ago. I write also since I can think of what I wrote and ask "is that really true?"
So, yes, my mom did leave some haunting feelings and beliefs. The REAL pain is acknowledging those feelings........and letting GO of them. If I'd actually let them go when writing, I'd not be rehashing stuff 25 years later still. Dang, I've done that.
I know E2 has "Let Your Past Go", looking at the sales page. I guess it's my hope each time I write to actually leave something behind. I used to fantasize about this, thinking it'd happen in some in-treatment facility.
I think E2 is pushing me to let my past go. I say that since I've not had such fantasies in any way while on E2. My guess is my subconsious is saying "what? Are you kidding?"
I'll check in later, since I have to go to work.
Infinite, has DMSI helped you with your own mother memories?
I'll see her this weekend, and I was reminded in a daily reader that me worrying about tomorrow is not helpful to anyone, me mostly. But I'll likely bring up something I've not asked lately.
Also, I'll share this about my postings. I used to post on another healing forum over 10 years ago. For me, writing is much more personal, meaning I choose to be honest. Therapists and even 12 step programs will encourage daily journaling, and for me, it works. I still have some paper journals I wrote in 25 years ago. I write also since I can think of what I wrote and ask "is that really true?"
So, yes, my mom did leave some haunting feelings and beliefs. The REAL pain is acknowledging those feelings........and letting GO of them. If I'd actually let them go when writing, I'd not be rehashing stuff 25 years later still. Dang, I've done that.
I know E2 has "Let Your Past Go", looking at the sales page. I guess it's my hope each time I write to actually leave something behind. I used to fantasize about this, thinking it'd happen in some in-treatment facility.
I think E2 is pushing me to let my past go. I say that since I've not had such fantasies in any way while on E2. My guess is my subconsious is saying "what? Are you kidding?"
I'll check in later, since I have to go to work.
Infinite, has DMSI helped you with your own mother memories?
I want to be FREE!
