09-25-2018, 02:32 PM
I replied to an E2 question lately, and Kol spoke up about his possible need for it, citing strong dissociation and PTSD symptoms growing up.
I mention this since I feel like I have strong (meaning "frightening") feelings on my left, and strong feelings on my right. I've felt myself dissociating from them a bit today. I was very tired at work, but it may have been the full moon's effects, as 2 others I worked around today were similarly exhausted.
I digressed. I'm really in new territory. I have this seemingly monumental challenge to face and go through. ...and I'm still trying to do it alone.
A meeting starts in 30 minutes. Do I really want to go? No
Do I really want to sit in my s***, whining for help? No. That makes me mad
I'm nervous. I'm going.
I mention this since I feel like I have strong (meaning "frightening") feelings on my left, and strong feelings on my right. I've felt myself dissociating from them a bit today. I was very tired at work, but it may have been the full moon's effects, as 2 others I worked around today were similarly exhausted.
I digressed. I'm really in new territory. I have this seemingly monumental challenge to face and go through. ...and I'm still trying to do it alone.
A meeting starts in 30 minutes. Do I really want to go? No
Do I really want to sit in my s***, whining for help? No. That makes me mad
I'm nervous. I'm going.
I want to be FREE!
