Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Broski]

So basically you have a fear based feedback loop that you have focused on yourself, for infinite replay-ability. Congrats, you're afraid of yourself.

How many loops a day are you using USLM for?

I don't think there is a need to make fun of me/the situation. I am trying to be honest and open with you here and don't really appreciate that. It's not like I intentionally tried to create the situation and it hasn't exactly been pleasant. I have been doing 1 loop a day.

I apologize for the tone of the post, there was no insult or negativity intended. When I wrote that I was simply at my wit's end with how things have been going lately and I was about to lose it. I had to spend most of yesterday trying to come back from that state, in fact, so I could remain functional. So please don't take it as being sarcasm or nastiness, it wasn't.

Okay, so at one loop per day you're having an extreme fear response, and this is being triggered by your fears based on the psychology class you took. That is a complex issue right there.

Have you attempted more than 1 loop per day?

It is okay Shannon. I appreciate the apology. I hope everything going on with you turns around soon and you start feeling better. I THINK it is from psychology class that is at least my best guess. I don;t know though if something might have happened earlier in my life also that caused me to react in the way i did to it. I have been only doing one loop because I see myself as a "control freak" type and figured more would NOT be better in that case. The weird thing is this fear really started popping up strongly again the day BEFORE I started running US/LM. Could that be TID resistance?

That would absolutely be TID resistance.

It is worth noting that 7 loops was recommended for those who did not do well with one loop.

In some cases, more loops causes execution and bypassing of issues because there is enough of the exposure to do so. I suggest you switch to 7 loops and see what happens.

And I understand you have fears, but seriously, give 7 loops a serious, significant chance.

Tomorrow starts my 2 off days, but after that I will give 7 loops a shot and report back with how it seems to affect me.