Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

To add about the gay dreams; im not having gay-dreams, but sometimes, Im in limbo. No attraction, no non attraction. Which, in turn makes me wonder if I am pealing this onion, that it uncovers. Its like no woman is satisfying to me and im, perhaps due to fear, turning myself away. It makes me at times question "maybe im gay" and its a sore spot. DMSI might aswell bring me to the depths and it annoys me frankly. Its the same issue all over again, its as if my subconscious goes nope at times, with all kind of excuses.

On the other hand, to add to this, DMSI has brought me to the lowest lows and on top of the world. The lowest lows, meaning, minutes become an eternity, being high is freeroam seduction and blazing confidence. Like "it just clicks"

Like right now, tension.

Now, to give an example, highest highs also involves juggling 5 girls at the same time and knowing with every fiber in my being, that my wealth goals are to be attained. Like, im promising on my life, prices will not count and having wealth freedom. There is also the survival aspects in this.

Now @Shannon , I notice im hitting an wall every damn time wealth wise. Like, im having a vision, but somewhere along the way, I seem to somewhat "dial out" of this frequency and wavelength of wealth, like sidetracked. Like every time I break through and evolve, it pops up again, and, tbf, its getting tiresome and its getting old.

Its like I break off pre-maturely and am pretty sure this is my final key to being consistent.

Any thoughts?

This is a subconscious self sabotage method that it enacts whenever it fears what you are trying to achieve. It's about the subconscious equivalent of stealing the reigns of a horse from the rider so you can avoid getting to the intended destination.

Again, all we need to do is kill that fear.