09-04-2018, 09:57 AM
SM stage 2 Day 14
Seems to be dark times for me on stage 2. I lost interest in seeing my FB and spent days in my appartment by myself not wanting to go out or do anything related to dating. I felt upset and anger boil up inside me dark thoughts. I do not understand where these were coming from. As stage 1 seemed like a walk in the park.
At one point I wanted to give up but I said No I started this so I must finish. I even contemplating going back to DMSI 3.2 as I really enjoyed my ride on this sub. Maybe I needed to some more clearing but the million dollar question is just how much clearing do i have do. I cannot spend an entier life time clearing by that time I will be old.
On the way to the gym it was like I had some dark cloud over my head. Women as they walked towards me looked away or down to the ground when the got close to me.
Seems to be dark times for me on stage 2. I lost interest in seeing my FB and spent days in my appartment by myself not wanting to go out or do anything related to dating. I felt upset and anger boil up inside me dark thoughts. I do not understand where these were coming from. As stage 1 seemed like a walk in the park.
At one point I wanted to give up but I said No I started this so I must finish. I even contemplating going back to DMSI 3.2 as I really enjoyed my ride on this sub. Maybe I needed to some more clearing but the million dollar question is just how much clearing do i have do. I cannot spend an entier life time clearing by that time I will be old.
On the way to the gym it was like I had some dark cloud over my head. Women as they walked towards me looked away or down to the ground when the got close to me.
