Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

Hey Shannon, I'm not sure whether this is TID or whatever but I feel it might be useful as you're designing 3.3.

Yesterday (and this morning) I experienced an almost completely lack of fear. Prime example: bad storm yesterday and lightening loudly cracked through close by and I didn't even break stride while I was in the rain taking out trash. May not be a big deal to anyone else, but it was for me. I was closing at my job yesterday and I felt so peaceful due to the lack of fear that I sat down on the floor and just took it all in. Zero f*cks given. I wasn't even concerned about my throat which I believe got badly irritated by consuming real spicy shit and has had me slightly worried for the last few days.

Got on campus today, was still in zero % fear mode (aka Ultra Instinct) but I then started doing 2 things:

1. When I saw attractive chicks I thought "I'm in a relationship I shouldn't approach". I'm not in a relationship, I was THINKING of getting into one [a relationship] with one female I'd been conversing with but she explicitly told me it's ok if I see other women.

2. The actions/routines/thought patterns that I had been engaging with for years due to fear suddenly felt foreign. For example, I sometimes get anxiety over my health so things like my throat being badly irritated would sometimes worry me. Well, because I had no fear around the irritation I kept thinking "shouldn't I be afraid that I'm not worried about anything?" Basically a sizable portion of my life had been built around fear to the point to where once that fear was gone it was like part of "me" was gone. I had become so accustomed to having fear that the LACK of fear...was causing FEAR because I was thinking of what was going to happen when the fear came back.


Concerning example #1: I know way back in V3.1/V3.0 you warned everyone who was in a relationship and wanted to keep it that there would come a point in time where DMSI was going to make such a thing extremely difficult. I think now would be a good time to make this happen because "I'm in relationship" could be a useful escape tactic.

Concerning example #2: I know most if not all 5.5G tech has a naturalizer but perhaps a naturalizer directly linked to fear removal would be useful?

PS: Related to what @samba99 said, PLEASE take your time with V3.3. We've learned our lesson by now. Take the time you need to test B17 if it means us possibly getting better tech with V3.3. There's a good chance we may not get V3.4/final for quite some time afterwards and I'm sure everyone would be more than happy to have a V3.3 that's got a full squadron of the latest tech and has the greatest chance of setting up V3.4 to (hopefully) be the final version needed.

Interesting indeed. Thanks for the information, I've made a note of that.

And I am taking my time. I am working hard on finishing B17 up right now. My girlfriend is starting to complain because of the amount of time each day I am working, actually. It's not going as fast as I would like, but I am hoping to be done in a week or less. I want to build and test that, and then potentially use some of these modules I am developing in 3.3. There are some that look really interesting for what they might achieve for DMSI. That will add at least 2 weeks to the build time for 3.3. I think it will be worth it.