08-15-2018, 11:36 AM
I probably discovered an important reason why I am so much concerned about the anti-fap-module. I wasn't aware until now, but two days ago I realized that due some bad experiences in regard to sex in addition with my fears (especially of intimacy and doing something wrong) my present sexual experiences usually gave me LESS pleasure than masturbation. That's probably also the reason why I am not very motivated to execute the whole script, just the attraction part, because from that point of view I am already giving myself a far better experience and pleasure than any woman could give me. And until the anti-fap-module came in play in 3.2 it was not a problem, but now, it is like I have to exchange something really good with something that is just ok. So no wonder that I went so crazy about this module. I...just don't know what to do with this knowledge, because I still want sex with women on a conscious level - probably because it is somehow hardwired - but I would need some really good sex experiences to be more motivated to execute the whole script which probably would only happen if I already would execute the script...so some kind of hen and egg problem...
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
