08-11-2018, 04:36 PM
Maybe.
I have tried to move forward for many years, even with other subs. So, I am not going to hold my breath. I might take a new approach that I have never taken before...which is to accept that I won't be able to change things. Make peace with what is, instead of fighting against it. Finally just give up.
The struggle, the hardness of "life" has always been within and has always been perpetuated by me. Instead of being hard on my self whilst not succeeding, it would be more productive to be easy on my self whilst not succeeding.
Anyway, I am rambling. I really want to not write in this journal for a while, because I have only been listening to this sub for a week and as not much has been happening in terms of tangible results it's easy to ramble on about thoughts, which is ultimately pointless, if nothing changes externally in my physical reality.
So, until then...have a good meal.
I have tried to move forward for many years, even with other subs. So, I am not going to hold my breath. I might take a new approach that I have never taken before...which is to accept that I won't be able to change things. Make peace with what is, instead of fighting against it. Finally just give up.
The struggle, the hardness of "life" has always been within and has always been perpetuated by me. Instead of being hard on my self whilst not succeeding, it would be more productive to be easy on my self whilst not succeeding.
Anyway, I am rambling. I really want to not write in this journal for a while, because I have only been listening to this sub for a week and as not much has been happening in terms of tangible results it's easy to ramble on about thoughts, which is ultimately pointless, if nothing changes externally in my physical reality.
So, until then...have a good meal.
