Today, I had a weird experience. I went out trekking with a girl from the gym.
I felt some sexual tension between us in the past. I have sometime felt attraction from her. Like she was like a kitten about to pur in my hands but OTOH, I had strong suspicion that she was a lesbian. Best case scenario was that she was bisexual.
But during our trekking, as we spoke, the cat came out of the bag and she is pretty much a hardcore lesbian... I am not too sure how beneficial such unusual friendship can be...
Bottomline the vibe between us was like the one between 2 guy buddies... We did talk about everything including sex and which girls we were finding hot at the gym... Maybe this could be threesome material... I tested water by saying that it would be cool to do a girl together and she enthusiastically agreed to the idea.
but overall I am really not sure what to think about that friendship. For one, she is a nice trekking buddy. We did talk about going to a BDSM workshop together and she was really digging the idea. Going there with a woman is much cheaper than going there as a single man.... Who knows. I got a very willing lesbian woman happy to follow me in crazy places... One of the joke I made with her was that I was a lesbian too. A lesbian trapped into a man buddy... That was totally absurd but that made her laugh...
I have 2 takeaways from this experience.
1. I went along with it as I felt like Jim Carrey YES man. She has proposed an activity, I had to try it with an open mind. This is to be in line with one of the AM6 goal which is to expand social circle. This is something that I really need to improve. So let's focus on quantity first. I'll worry about quality later.
2. I was totally cool to have a very casual friendly activity without having ANY sexual thoughts for doing her during our activity. Sure I did throw some sexual innuendo here and there because that is how I am but I didn't felt a burning desire to do her and I was totally fine with just doing trekking with her. I think that this is one of the goal of the program.. Let me find it....
This one:
Being entirely unconcerned with getting the interest of any woman, because you know there are plenty more where she came from.
and/or maybe this one too:
Drastically reduced or completely destroyed neediness.
I felt some sexual tension between us in the past. I have sometime felt attraction from her. Like she was like a kitten about to pur in my hands but OTOH, I had strong suspicion that she was a lesbian. Best case scenario was that she was bisexual.
But during our trekking, as we spoke, the cat came out of the bag and she is pretty much a hardcore lesbian... I am not too sure how beneficial such unusual friendship can be...
Bottomline the vibe between us was like the one between 2 guy buddies... We did talk about everything including sex and which girls we were finding hot at the gym... Maybe this could be threesome material... I tested water by saying that it would be cool to do a girl together and she enthusiastically agreed to the idea.
but overall I am really not sure what to think about that friendship. For one, she is a nice trekking buddy. We did talk about going to a BDSM workshop together and she was really digging the idea. Going there with a woman is much cheaper than going there as a single man.... Who knows. I got a very willing lesbian woman happy to follow me in crazy places... One of the joke I made with her was that I was a lesbian too. A lesbian trapped into a man buddy... That was totally absurd but that made her laugh...
I have 2 takeaways from this experience.
1. I went along with it as I felt like Jim Carrey YES man. She has proposed an activity, I had to try it with an open mind. This is to be in line with one of the AM6 goal which is to expand social circle. This is something that I really need to improve. So let's focus on quantity first. I'll worry about quality later.
2. I was totally cool to have a very casual friendly activity without having ANY sexual thoughts for doing her during our activity. Sure I did throw some sexual innuendo here and there because that is how I am but I didn't felt a burning desire to do her and I was totally fine with just doing trekking with her. I think that this is one of the goal of the program.. Let me find it....
This one:
Being entirely unconcerned with getting the interest of any woman, because you know there are plenty more where she came from.
and/or maybe this one too:
Drastically reduced or completely destroyed neediness.
