07-26-2018, 10:26 AM
(06-20-2018, 03:58 AM)Shannon Wrote: The use of "recreational" drugs is usually an effort to escape and medicate mental and or emotional pain. That you have just lost interest in them, even when you considered yourself an addict to marijuana (which you can only become psychologically dependent on), is huge. This means you are indeed healing and clearing, and this is excellent progress. Congratulations!
Thank you, Shannon, your subs are fucking awesome, really changed my life and i mostly used "minor" subs for short periods.
Sorry for discontinuing this journal, it was a mix of laziness and lack of time, i am in the end of my law graduation and preparing one last big paper and all my focus is on that. I feel obligated to give credit to the sub for lots of big changes in my life, i will make it as short as possible after 3 months:
1. I was already a health freak but after this sub, i am as a new level that i didn't even knew existed. The detox program really motivated me to clean up my diet, i am now mostly eating raw foods (fruits, vegetables, herbs, spices), i am fasting (fruit, juice, water or dry) regularly, quit all drugs (including alcohol and 95% of caffeine). I had an chronic lower back pain for years that influenced a lot in my life and no doctor was able to solve it until i started to detox my body, cleaning up my digestive tract and reduced about 90% of the pain in less then 3 months which is a freacking miracle as far as i know.
2. I am way happier than before, lower levels of anxiety, fear, guilt, shame. My neediness is almost non-existent. I can be happy alone. I accept things way more, i just go with life flow. I broke up with my ex 1 month ago and since then i feel almost no sadness or neediness which is really nice, i didn't expected this effect at all.
3. My mind is way better, less brain fog, concentration and memory are better, although i still have some problem with my ADHD (is much better now but i still have a long way to go).
4. I had to deal with a lot of limiting beliefs that i didn't even know i had like not feeling good enough. I tend to think i am dumb and incompetent even though everybody says the exact opposite and for the first time i am grasping the possibility that i am competent and i can do a lot if i put my mind into it.
This program surprised me a lot because the main use i had for it was to (obviously) tune up my brain (which it did a little) but it made a lot of unexpected changes in my life that are really nice.
For the last month, i didn't feel that there was a lot of dramatic changes so i am discontinuing the program and planning my next one. Right now i am thinking in AM6 because i need to develop discipline and motivation, i want to become financially independent, choose the best career, stop my procrastination and laziness (my biggest problems). A have a lot of limiting beliefs that i want to take care of. Women are the last priority in my list, is nice to attract high quality women but i am not worried at all about it for now. I want to become the ultimate MAN, take charge of my whole life, take care of others and be an inspiration for everyone. I am deeply into spirituality but i feel that i need to develop this masculine side first to progress in life.
