07-15-2018, 09:24 PM
It' been almost two months now running the sub at 7 loops. Over the last few days I am getting dreams of someone asking me to fly a plane and telling me its easy. I prepare myself to fly the plane and the dream ends.
Another one is of me lying their and a naked woman is lying next to me then I see my father in the distant then the dream ends.
Deep down because I have allowed my mother and father to dominate and control my life. Its almost I have guilty feelings because I am distancing myself from them. If I was truely alpha I hate putting labels on things but seriously I wouldn't feel this guilt but I am its like I feel afraid.
I feel there is still some clearing to do the funny thing is when I get scared. I think back to a famous quote in one of the Game of Thrones episodes "At times we are scared it is at these times one must be brave"
Shannon should I run the AMS refresher to clear out these guilty feelings of distancing myself from my parents ?. The reason I do this is to better my life and wanting my happiness it seemed all about their happiness before mine.
Trying to figure out the aeroplane dream and what is means or is trying to tellme.
Another one is of me lying their and a naked woman is lying next to me then I see my father in the distant then the dream ends.
Deep down because I have allowed my mother and father to dominate and control my life. Its almost I have guilty feelings because I am distancing myself from them. If I was truely alpha I hate putting labels on things but seriously I wouldn't feel this guilt but I am its like I feel afraid.
I feel there is still some clearing to do the funny thing is when I get scared. I think back to a famous quote in one of the Game of Thrones episodes "At times we are scared it is at these times one must be brave"
Shannon should I run the AMS refresher to clear out these guilty feelings of distancing myself from my parents ?. The reason I do this is to better my life and wanting my happiness it seemed all about their happiness before mine.
Trying to figure out the aeroplane dream and what is means or is trying to tellme.
