06-12-2018, 03:08 AM
Hey Shannon, thought I would give a kind of report on things. Will make it short since i'm currently in vacation in the philippines and i'm on a tablet at the moment. I will report on what I how I might have been resisting in ordee to improve things. I had to stop the program due the main reason I will explain though I think I may have gotten a late manifestation after not using it for a while.
The main thing my mind seemed to use to resist was that same attitude of I don't care but it seemed to be worst than I thought. It seemed to evolve into straight up nihilism. "I don't care, nothing matters, its all unimportant". It wasn't just towards women either it was towarda everyrhing and it started to affect my motivation towards anything I needed to get accomplished which is bad since I currently need to search for a new job once I get back. So pretty much the main way it seemed to resist was through complete nihilism and no motivation towards anything. Not sure if this nihilism might be in relation with the idea that I will die if I execute the script.
Another smaller thing that is getting annoying is my inability to "finish" when actually having sex. It's like I will get close to finishing multiple times but every time its like some old program in my mind will come online and totally shut off any pleasure I was feeling at the moment or reset me back to 0 just when I was about to reach 100% if that makes sense. I dont know what is causing this. Also I noticed I don't seem to be able to even be close to finishing if i'm just fucking a chick. Its like I don't have enough sensitivity from the regular act to be pushed over the edge. Though I did notice, on previous versions though not on this one, that whenever I was taking Aniracetam , a nootropic, I seemed to be able to finish even with just intercorse. Aniracetam is known to reduce stress, depression and cause a kind of relaxed feeling. Not sure if that means my subconscious is also highly resisting the anti anxiety and depression scripting.
Anyway thought I would report on that for now.
The main thing my mind seemed to use to resist was that same attitude of I don't care but it seemed to be worst than I thought. It seemed to evolve into straight up nihilism. "I don't care, nothing matters, its all unimportant". It wasn't just towards women either it was towarda everyrhing and it started to affect my motivation towards anything I needed to get accomplished which is bad since I currently need to search for a new job once I get back. So pretty much the main way it seemed to resist was through complete nihilism and no motivation towards anything. Not sure if this nihilism might be in relation with the idea that I will die if I execute the script.
Another smaller thing that is getting annoying is my inability to "finish" when actually having sex. It's like I will get close to finishing multiple times but every time its like some old program in my mind will come online and totally shut off any pleasure I was feeling at the moment or reset me back to 0 just when I was about to reach 100% if that makes sense. I dont know what is causing this. Also I noticed I don't seem to be able to even be close to finishing if i'm just fucking a chick. Its like I don't have enough sensitivity from the regular act to be pushed over the edge. Though I did notice, on previous versions though not on this one, that whenever I was taking Aniracetam , a nootropic, I seemed to be able to finish even with just intercorse. Aniracetam is known to reduce stress, depression and cause a kind of relaxed feeling. Not sure if that means my subconscious is also highly resisting the anti anxiety and depression scripting.
Anyway thought I would report on that for now.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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