03-12-2012, 08:39 PM
I am now 9 days into stage 2.
I haven't experienced any results yet. Been dreaming a lot all the way through stage 1 and I have had quit a few nightmares during stage 2, but none of the dreams have been relevant to the program.
The motivation has almost been completely gone since I started with SM. It is also something worse going on, which I discovered when I took one day off (twice), once between changing stages and the other one a two days back.
The thing I discovered is that the days I don’t listen to the program I feel happier and I have more motivation. I have clear and deep thoughts and I know what I want to do and have the desire and will to do so.
But the days I listen to the program I feel like a shadow of my old self, without being able to have deep thoughts, without wanting to do anything in particular, without real goals and motivation. Soulless - that would be the one word that can describe the feeling perfectly.
I am considering quitting the program.
I haven't experienced any results yet. Been dreaming a lot all the way through stage 1 and I have had quit a few nightmares during stage 2, but none of the dreams have been relevant to the program.
The motivation has almost been completely gone since I started with SM. It is also something worse going on, which I discovered when I took one day off (twice), once between changing stages and the other one a two days back.
The thing I discovered is that the days I don’t listen to the program I feel happier and I have more motivation. I have clear and deep thoughts and I know what I want to do and have the desire and will to do so.
But the days I listen to the program I feel like a shadow of my old self, without being able to have deep thoughts, without wanting to do anything in particular, without real goals and motivation. Soulless - that would be the one word that can describe the feeling perfectly.
I am considering quitting the program.
