Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

I have experienced thinking about my ex girlfriend too recently and I too thought it might be resistance, but then again I did have fears that being in the relationship with her pushed me to face. All this stuff is very paradoxical to know what is the real reason.

For example I have been shifting between staying and going towards a degree, or leaving for a year working/travelling.

Obviously getting back with girlfriend can be seen as opposite to DMSI goals, even though DMSI could be healing/clearing issues I have with being in a relationship, as I had fears of bringing her back to my parents place because of past hurts from my Marriage that I had here that involved my parents.

Staying or going. I can imagine going away I would meet more people (Women) because I would be in staying in a cities and staying in hostels etc ....But then I don't know if I am "running" away? Even though I know I will grow.

Staying and going towards a degree would benefit me more long term I imagine and I would still be meeting women along this journey. I also can continue certain hobbies I am passionate about if I stayed. If I stayed I would have to continue living with my parents for at least another year though. Is this comfort zone? or is it because I am thinking smart and thinking of my future?

Things are more complicated when things are affecting your subconscious mind, as we don't know what is towards the goals or resistance, especially when everything seems to have a bit of both sides

By your own words, getting into a committed relationship is contrary to the goals of DMSI. Therefore, it cannot be DMSI pushing you to do that.

The rest... I don't know about.