Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Fluffy]

It is entirely possible that DMSI is pushing you to get up and become self sufficient in order for it to achieve its goals. It is also possible that this is just an excuse to quit DMSI - since it already has SE in it.

DMSI will do whatever is necessary to get you to the goal. Lot if guys here started working on making money, or more money, when they started doing DMSI. But you can't get there if you stop using it.

Be sure you know it's not just clever resistance tactics before you switch. ARA isn't going to be the end all be all to getting a job and being self sufficient.

Yeah that is a very good point Shannon, I don't know why I could not see that.

Likely because your subconscious was preventing your conscious from seeing it in an effort to escape.

Yesterday after only a few nights of doing 2 loops of A, I started having this kind of dizzy feeling upon waking, I brushed it off and just thought it is because of the extra processing from the 2 loops.

Anyway, I took a nap in the afternoon and I had this dream which involved me interacting with someone in this big caravan type thing, and it starting spinning and spinning with me inside and I was still stationary, but the spinning around me would not stop and I felt fear and felt like I had no control and I got scared and I actually woke up with my heart beating fast, feeling disorientated and thinking "wow that is enough sleep" and I got up.

Shortly after that I started changing my mind about my plans to go abroad and work for 1 year + to become self sufficient and independent, I felt like I started feeling fearful of leaving home and my parents.

I was kind of shocked at how this nap effected me, because I don't hardly ever feel fear, consciously at least. This was quite negatively trippy, reminded me of a certain type of mushroom I used to eat years ago.

So that night, last night, I switched back to 1 loop, because I thought that 2 was too much and I didn't want to lose my mind (Past experiences, Mushrooms + Ego Death)

Is there a guideline/rule for decreasing the loops vs increasing them?

If I felt this from 2 loops, I don't think I would be able to do 7 loops or 10. That would not only give me rapid ego death but would most likely give me Vertigo too.

I suppose this is a good thing though, at least I don't have to do a millions loops just to feel something.

So you start getting results, it scares you, and you back down to what wasn't being effective. That's how to get the results waste your time.

Hiding from what scares you perpetuates and enhances the fear.

You are seeing your subconscious do things to convince you to stop running DMSI. It's afraid. You should do one of the following two things:

1. Stop running DMSI and use something else entirely.
2. Face your fears and overcome them.

Ok, that makes sense. I am currently in a sling at the moment as I had shoulder surgery two weeks ago. Gotta be in this sling for 6 weeks.

I have been feeling ALOT of anger and frustration, as I am unable to do anything and/or get on with things until I am out of sling. I noticed I am being more easily triggered too, things that touch deep within my emotions, that I don't fully understand why.

I did have thoughts that this can only get worse right, if I am unable to fully act?

In response to any and all of your thoughts that touch on what to do with regards to DMSI, if you choose to keep using it, do this:

Ask:

"How will this thought, belief, point of view and/or response affect my use of and achieving the goals of DMSI?"

If it will affect them in a negative way, it is a sabotage attempt. THROW IT AWAY and replace it with a positive belief or thought that will result in achieving the goals of DMSI.

Thanks Shannon, all this helped alot! Much appreciated.

I will go back to 2 loops tonight and I will brace myself for a wild adventure lol.