05-10-2018, 06:08 AM
Day 6 - Still dealing with a ton of resistance. Caught between knowing that listening to E2 is the best thing & wanting to jump to ASC or AM6. I am slowly beginning to realize that a lot of the resistance when I think or feel my life should be a certain way right now. That I don't think I should have to or don't want to wait however long it takes to do the work. Obviously the only way to get where I want to be is to put in the time & do the work. A lot of the resistance & pain I feel comes from comparing myself to other people & their situations. Especially if its work related. It's been a huge struggle for me to watch people I trained with or who were in training classes after me do so well from the get go because they have prior experience in the industry . Intellectually I get that they were at one point where I'm at right now. I'm aware that this way of thinking is probably playing a huge part in how I hold myself back & I realize spending six to eighteen months listening to E2 isn't really that long. This is where I know that I need to become more mature emotionally so I can let go of the attachments that are causing my issues
