StridingStrider's AM6 Journal

[StridingStrider]

Stage 2 Day 11

Yesterday felt a bit nervous again. I always try and hide it but I just feel fake af. It's like I'm wearing a mask. Bah.

On the upside when I was meditating again in the morning I released some more tears, then later that night I tried the same thing and it felt empty. No sadness I could feel. This really underlines how detached I am from my feelings.

I've begun looking into trauma release exercises to see if it makes any difference. I feel like there's something that needs to come out. Previously I've tried Primal Screaming and it didn't do anything for me. Perhaps this will.

As for dreams; I had some but can't remember. Fml.

Dont worry about remembering or forgetting the dreams bro. As long as you know you had a dream then you had something. Whether its DMSI or not is another matter, but im hoping that if we have dreams and it is DMSI then its a sign DMSI is dealing with something.

Yeah I just enjoy remembering them.

Stage 2 Day 12

Interesting day. Spent the day talking to girls online. Got a black girls number who looks to be DTF but shes plus size and lives some distance away. Spent the night talking dirty with another girl. And got messaged by another.

I had two dreams that I sort of remember. In one there was a piece of wood from a tree that had the bark removed and in another I was naked in front of my mom. I was embarrassed but just covered my genitals up.