Day 21 16/3/2018
Haven't done much today, i've had a day off work due to dentist appointment.
I had 2 dreams last night. First one I remember after working with 3 or 4 guys on a job, we'd finished and everyone went home. I decided to go to a pub on my own and have a few drinks, i've never actually done this. At some point I remember 1 of the guys I worked with came in for a drink on his own, and then a short while later another did the same but we never talked, just like a nod as we saw each other. It seemed we all stayed on our own or those 2 went with their own groups. At some point when I was in there I saw a guy I went to school with with his wife and nodded to him. He was a close friend actually and in real life I would of spoken to him. I left the pub, and that was the end.
Next dream involved me, someone who I can't remember and the guy I saw from school in the first dream. We were kind of living in a cave, it appears some kind of zombie apocalypse had occurred and we were just trying to survive but we were right next to an entrance or exit where zombies would come out of, and we were just enjoying killing them like it was a normal thing to do. Can't remember anything else.
I've noticed today that I seem to be sweating slightly/heating up. My back was slightly wet after sitting in the chair having my hair cut and the same again in the dentists chair a couple of hours later. I am a big unit but I haven't noticed the heat issue up until the last day or two.
I woke up this morning with a thought in my head. That I haven't masturbated since Monday (12/3/2018). I ended a 60 day streak before at the end of January, since then I haven't been able to nail it again. But further to that thought is the fact that I haven't had any urge to do it or look at porn whatsoever. Perhaps the sub is working on some level but it's still too early to determine if it's just me or the sub.
I'm also thinking I look a bit fatter than normal today, coupled with the fact I have been eating a lot lately. Could it be resistance or power needed for the sub?
The last few days i've ended up pushing the loop further and further back, i'm now at about 1:30am. I need to bring this back somehow, I may have to wait until the next break though.
Haven't done much today, i've had a day off work due to dentist appointment.
I had 2 dreams last night. First one I remember after working with 3 or 4 guys on a job, we'd finished and everyone went home. I decided to go to a pub on my own and have a few drinks, i've never actually done this. At some point I remember 1 of the guys I worked with came in for a drink on his own, and then a short while later another did the same but we never talked, just like a nod as we saw each other. It seemed we all stayed on our own or those 2 went with their own groups. At some point when I was in there I saw a guy I went to school with with his wife and nodded to him. He was a close friend actually and in real life I would of spoken to him. I left the pub, and that was the end.
Next dream involved me, someone who I can't remember and the guy I saw from school in the first dream. We were kind of living in a cave, it appears some kind of zombie apocalypse had occurred and we were just trying to survive but we were right next to an entrance or exit where zombies would come out of, and we were just enjoying killing them like it was a normal thing to do. Can't remember anything else.
I've noticed today that I seem to be sweating slightly/heating up. My back was slightly wet after sitting in the chair having my hair cut and the same again in the dentists chair a couple of hours later. I am a big unit but I haven't noticed the heat issue up until the last day or two.
I woke up this morning with a thought in my head. That I haven't masturbated since Monday (12/3/2018). I ended a 60 day streak before at the end of January, since then I haven't been able to nail it again. But further to that thought is the fact that I haven't had any urge to do it or look at porn whatsoever. Perhaps the sub is working on some level but it's still too early to determine if it's just me or the sub.
I'm also thinking I look a bit fatter than normal today, coupled with the fact I have been eating a lot lately. Could it be resistance or power needed for the sub?
The last few days i've ended up pushing the loop further and further back, i'm now at about 1:30am. I need to bring this back somehow, I may have to wait until the next break though.
