Me and my girlfriend's DMSI journal

[Shannon]

I think I've hit some resistance. Haven't watched porn or masturbated for awhile, and did it three times today.

I'm taking this as a good sign as it means something is fighting, and I've noticed some very shy and interested looks from some ladies I know. Normally they're talkative and not shy. Now it seems like they're picking up either the aura or a change in my presence.

I'm not a fan of the porn and masturbation, but I decided to see where it would go instead of fighting down the urges. It seems like I need to be aware of and work with noticeable differences in my behavior. I don't intend to continue with this trend, but maybe something I'm not aware of will come from this.

It also appears that my refractory time has gone down...

This is simply accepting the excuse the subconscious suggested to you as a way of permitting yourself to disregard the script. Be wary of that sort of thing.