02-27-2018, 03:02 PM
So another update. I think I broke through the first layer of resistance and now I'm being hit with something even deeper. It's like 3.2 is drilling down hard. It keeps pushing me along, even if I get anxious or whatever type of distraction I'm always returning back to the goal. One thing I do notice is the effects are much more pronounced when I'm at home. I think part of me thinks executing DMSI in the work place is inappropriate. But it's gonna happen, I can feel it. It's really just an on or off switch for being sexy and at this point I'd rather just have it on and to stop worrying.
I do however notice something that might be good to report. At moments during the day I'll find myself sort of zoning out, body heat goes up, aura feels more powerful. It's like my brain diverts all it's processing power towards execution and I can't focus on anything else. But the good part is this is very brief, maybe 2 or 3 minutes. It's like a rest period for my brain to soak in whatever DMSI is sticking in there. Not sure if that's an intended effect or my minds reaction to the power of the sub.
Can't really report too much on reactions from women. But I've noticed an increase in shit testing. Nothing too abrasive, just almost like they are trying to get a rise out of me and I'm chill about it. I just laugh.
But yeah sitting here I feel myself executing a lot more. I wonder if it has to do with feeling safe? Or maybe just because I'm not working my mind can dedicate all it's power towards executing.
One more thing. Sleep is a bit weird lately. I notice when I really relax for the day and go to bed I start executing the script hard. My body heats up, sometimes I'll get these intense sexual visuals and scenarios, and it feels similar to when you're wired from drinking coffee. I'm not complaining though, I'd rather this than resisting during sleep. Perhaps when it balances out more during the day and I'm executing 100% of the time it will be more steady. Right now it sort of feels like I hold back a bit and once I'm really relaxed I'm flooded by all the stuff I was resisting.
I do however notice something that might be good to report. At moments during the day I'll find myself sort of zoning out, body heat goes up, aura feels more powerful. It's like my brain diverts all it's processing power towards execution and I can't focus on anything else. But the good part is this is very brief, maybe 2 or 3 minutes. It's like a rest period for my brain to soak in whatever DMSI is sticking in there. Not sure if that's an intended effect or my minds reaction to the power of the sub.
Can't really report too much on reactions from women. But I've noticed an increase in shit testing. Nothing too abrasive, just almost like they are trying to get a rise out of me and I'm chill about it. I just laugh.
But yeah sitting here I feel myself executing a lot more. I wonder if it has to do with feeling safe? Or maybe just because I'm not working my mind can dedicate all it's power towards executing.
One more thing. Sleep is a bit weird lately. I notice when I really relax for the day and go to bed I start executing the script hard. My body heats up, sometimes I'll get these intense sexual visuals and scenarios, and it feels similar to when you're wired from drinking coffee. I'm not complaining though, I'd rather this than resisting during sleep. Perhaps when it balances out more during the day and I'm executing 100% of the time it will be more steady. Right now it sort of feels like I hold back a bit and once I'm really relaxed I'm flooded by all the stuff I was resisting.
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