02-21-2012, 12:18 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-21-2012, 12:19 PM by LionMonkey.)
Stage 1 - Day 10,
I feel more detached from women than before I think..
I'll talk with some girls and if they can't see the fun or if they aren't welcoming, I'll just look at them for few seconds, then I'll stand up and say "it was nice to talk to you" without looking at them. I don't feel the need to at all.
Also I'll talk with a girl, she has nothing interesting to say and I'll just wait a few seconds and then walk away.
Something strange happened to me today. I've never got a response like that from a woman before.
It was on the bus, on my way home from crossfit. I lock eye-contact with this beautiful woman or at least it seemed like that the first time. I took a seat. At my stop, I walked over to her, and she took her earbuds off, and said;
"I just wanted to tell you, you are fantastic
"
She broke eye contact, looked away and said: "No.. Don't say that" not even looking." while putting her earbud back on. She was married I'm sure but man.. where's the feminine spirit..?
I naturally responded, "why not?" and left the bus. I felt more alive afterwards because I was a bit nervous when I did go up and tell her that. There were people just in her front seat and back seat, who were stunned about what I did but I just did what I wanted. I deserve that.
A thing I'm thinking about is; SM makes you feel detached / non-needy but what about motivation for going for what you want? Are these things going to be worked on in the latter stages?
I mean putting effort in it. I have to focus and concentrate a lot to get motivation and find the fun in putting effort in it.
Hmm...
I feel more detached from women than before I think..
I'll talk with some girls and if they can't see the fun or if they aren't welcoming, I'll just look at them for few seconds, then I'll stand up and say "it was nice to talk to you" without looking at them. I don't feel the need to at all.
Also I'll talk with a girl, she has nothing interesting to say and I'll just wait a few seconds and then walk away.
Something strange happened to me today. I've never got a response like that from a woman before.
It was on the bus, on my way home from crossfit. I lock eye-contact with this beautiful woman or at least it seemed like that the first time. I took a seat. At my stop, I walked over to her, and she took her earbuds off, and said;
"I just wanted to tell you, you are fantastic
" She broke eye contact, looked away and said: "No.. Don't say that" not even looking." while putting her earbud back on. She was married I'm sure but man.. where's the feminine spirit..?
I naturally responded, "why not?" and left the bus. I felt more alive afterwards because I was a bit nervous when I did go up and tell her that. There were people just in her front seat and back seat, who were stunned about what I did but I just did what I wanted. I deserve that.
A thing I'm thinking about is; SM makes you feel detached / non-needy but what about motivation for going for what you want? Are these things going to be worked on in the latter stages?
I mean putting effort in it. I have to focus and concentrate a lot to get motivation and find the fun in putting effort in it.
Hmm...
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
