Quote:I feel like I'm back 3 or 4 years, when I was feeling miserable and my self-esteem was very low.Ah...I thought that wasn't related and I didn't report it but YES I got the same thing too.
During the last two years I felt increasingly better about myself. But right now I feel how I felt back then.
Before switching to SE I did make good progress with myself, how I feel and co, but the night I ran SE everything went downhill and yes as you said it exactly felt like travelling back to some years ago when everything was worse. At that time I remember my self-esteem was very low and I was socially reserved. At around that time a friend abandoned me and that deeply affected me, as I recall.
The same thing happened in just a time span of running SE for a few days. My life was a big joke.
But personally I just saw it as a mere coincidence or just my mind forcing an explanation to a sudden change of mood.
And now that I'm out of this loop I'm seeing that I probably just felt that way because of the exhaustion from the sub. Exhaustion -> Low Energy -> Depression -> All the other goodies around it -> Negative thoughts patterns -> Attract even more issues.
That's something I found about. Anything that makes me tired or drain me in any way causes depression and that's the start of a hell of time. (Like ejaculating)
So I didn't put the nasty effects as resistance but simply a consequence of the overwhelming effects of the sub. That stay quite personal and everyone is different but, watch out for your energy level...Since I realized it I'm feeling way better.
