01-25-2018, 06:54 PM
More stuff that has come up. I'm kind of tired of waiting until I'm good enough to allow other people to know me. I've had a history of anxiety and depression and I still hold great shame over these things. I'm not 100 percent past them yet, I'm getting close though. I feel like I'm teetering on the edge of breaking free into a whole new life vs being tied to my old self.
With all this talk about multiple realities, I'd have to assume that one has to embody the identity of an individual without these emotional issues to move on from them. For me that's a bit of a challenge. It's pretty much all I've ever known and I constantly feel like I never truly break free from it and I just get sucked back in. But that's yet another reality I've faced, the one where I think I'm making great progress and then fall back, then start to wonder if change is really possible. That's my biggest issue, when I have tried in the past and got nowhere. It's still filed away in my head and everything tends to be put through the filter of "this will never work". If strong belief is necessary to change one's life and there exists a strong belief that it won't work, is there an override for that?
It's almost like a negative feedback loop. In order to get what I want I have to believe, but I don't believe in it so I don't get it which further strengthens the current reality of not having it. Quite frustrating.
With all this talk about multiple realities, I'd have to assume that one has to embody the identity of an individual without these emotional issues to move on from them. For me that's a bit of a challenge. It's pretty much all I've ever known and I constantly feel like I never truly break free from it and I just get sucked back in. But that's yet another reality I've faced, the one where I think I'm making great progress and then fall back, then start to wonder if change is really possible. That's my biggest issue, when I have tried in the past and got nowhere. It's still filed away in my head and everything tends to be put through the filter of "this will never work". If strong belief is necessary to change one's life and there exists a strong belief that it won't work, is there an override for that?
It's almost like a negative feedback loop. In order to get what I want I have to believe, but I don't believe in it so I don't get it which further strengthens the current reality of not having it. Quite frustrating.
INFP
