01-20-2018, 06:09 PM
I'm back on UD, having run Self Esteem almost a week. SE is an excellent program. I just realized more clearing was necessary, so I sidelined it for now.
I began UD 1/18/18. I've had many good moments before I pulled off it, I'd been PMing different users about their sub habits and experiences, and realized I WANT THIS.
Thank you Shannon, for your tough words to ride out the resistance. I've not had much turbulence since coming back on, but wow--I was very, very aware something was running in my head the first day after. When I'd just listen to my thinking during the work day, it was like I could hear something (maybe the trickling stream). I also FELT like some things were being shuffled around. I could actually feel something, and as a stroke survivor who actively worked on healing my brain, UD felt very similar. Yes, the brain can regenerate itself given time, energy, and enough resources. UD is doing some healing too, and I am grateful to have picked it up.
I began UD 1/18/18. I've had many good moments before I pulled off it, I'd been PMing different users about their sub habits and experiences, and realized I WANT THIS.
Thank you Shannon, for your tough words to ride out the resistance. I've not had much turbulence since coming back on, but wow--I was very, very aware something was running in my head the first day after. When I'd just listen to my thinking during the work day, it was like I could hear something (maybe the trickling stream). I also FELT like some things were being shuffled around. I could actually feel something, and as a stroke survivor who actively worked on healing my brain, UD felt very similar. Yes, the brain can regenerate itself given time, energy, and enough resources. UD is doing some healing too, and I am grateful to have picked it up.
I want to be FREE!
