01-20-2018, 02:11 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-20-2018, 02:22 PM by Have at ye.)
Boy, am I in a great mood these last days, lol. 
As in - I'm fricking tired of all these mood swings. Hopefully it's just some static from the transitory 3.1/3.2 period, and 3.2 won't have such an effect on me. It's like some part of me keeps throwing the same ol' shit at me, making me feel derpressed to an extent (I'm still fully functional, though, just feeling kinda lazy/procrastinate-y, and not knowing whether to try and fight derpy thoughts or let them be and unwind on their own), and also kinda rage-y at times. Same old fears, same old bullshit.
I'm noticing something of an "energetic void", and it's located somewhere in the right side of my physical body, somewhere between the solar plexus and the lower heart chakras. I think it is leaving me open to what's commonly referred to as "psychic attack" by ill-willed people, as I've been experiencing very unpleasant thoughts concerning several people (two women and one guy) with whom I've broken off contact on purpose due to their toxicity (several months back), which has made itself extremely apparent once I've started getting visible DMSI results (they've all got narcissistic personalities, and this irked them something fierce - and they've been actively trying to sabotage my results whenever they saw them firsthand or got wind of them in any other way). I mean, like, seriously, guys, get over yourselves, lol. Even my ex stopped trying to sabotage me after a point. Also, the usual showbiz types who see me as a professional threat (because I'm better at what I do than they are, lol, or are annoyed that I'm not sucking up to them like they're used to when they're in a position of power), though that's been lessening lately.
I find myself wondering whether to start out with ver. 3.2 with healing or without. Also wondering whether this apparent indecision is messing up TID, but I guess my subconscious already knows which version I'll be using first. Most probably I'll just follow the instructions, so if it still says that, say, at least a month of ver. A is recommended prior to using ver. B, then I'll do that.
If it doesn't, I just might try ver. B first, as I'm the "poor widdle me" type of guy whose subconscious tries to use H&C as a crutch to not execute. Then again, should the version with H&C give good results, then I guess I'd stick to that as getting stuff cleared out has a lot of added benefits, apart from getting some MSI on.
I am seeing effects of the aura still, though, albeit nothing groundbreaking as of yet; feels like it's still ver. 3.1 running.
Over and out for now.
EDIT:
Also, very vivid dreams, some of them sexual in nature.
As in - I'm fricking tired of all these mood swings. Hopefully it's just some static from the transitory 3.1/3.2 period, and 3.2 won't have such an effect on me. It's like some part of me keeps throwing the same ol' shit at me, making me feel derpressed to an extent (I'm still fully functional, though, just feeling kinda lazy/procrastinate-y, and not knowing whether to try and fight derpy thoughts or let them be and unwind on their own), and also kinda rage-y at times. Same old fears, same old bullshit.I'm noticing something of an "energetic void", and it's located somewhere in the right side of my physical body, somewhere between the solar plexus and the lower heart chakras. I think it is leaving me open to what's commonly referred to as "psychic attack" by ill-willed people, as I've been experiencing very unpleasant thoughts concerning several people (two women and one guy) with whom I've broken off contact on purpose due to their toxicity (several months back), which has made itself extremely apparent once I've started getting visible DMSI results (they've all got narcissistic personalities, and this irked them something fierce - and they've been actively trying to sabotage my results whenever they saw them firsthand or got wind of them in any other way). I mean, like, seriously, guys, get over yourselves, lol. Even my ex stopped trying to sabotage me after a point. Also, the usual showbiz types who see me as a professional threat (because I'm better at what I do than they are, lol, or are annoyed that I'm not sucking up to them like they're used to when they're in a position of power), though that's been lessening lately.
I find myself wondering whether to start out with ver. 3.2 with healing or without. Also wondering whether this apparent indecision is messing up TID, but I guess my subconscious already knows which version I'll be using first. Most probably I'll just follow the instructions, so if it still says that, say, at least a month of ver. A is recommended prior to using ver. B, then I'll do that.
If it doesn't, I just might try ver. B first, as I'm the "poor widdle me" type of guy whose subconscious tries to use H&C as a crutch to not execute. Then again, should the version with H&C give good results, then I guess I'd stick to that as getting stuff cleared out has a lot of added benefits, apart from getting some MSI on.
I am seeing effects of the aura still, though, albeit nothing groundbreaking as of yet; feels like it's still ver. 3.1 running.
Over and out for now.
EDIT:
Also, very vivid dreams, some of them sexual in nature.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
