At this point I think the only way I could be fully content living in modern times is:
1. becoming a religious fundamentalist
2. becoming a post-apocalyptic cannibal warlord religious fundamentalist
Hahahaha... Just kidding, maybe I'll shoot for the sage or saint title.
Through all my struggles for understanding, I always have to seek out the comfort of a Higher power be it part of myself or an external god(s). Why am I living "in the wilderness"? So that I can become closer to God and hear his teachings. That is what keeps me going and it's also what teaches me morals. I personally love looking through scripture because I get lots of revelations but it took years of cross-correlating different religions to figure it out and see the bigger picture.
Really, if I had more discipline, I would eschew trying to make motions in the materialistic world and stick to meditating. Then I could develop my psychic senses more and learn firsthand from the nature/higher realms. There are all kinds of beings surrounding us, they are just outside of our everyday awareness frequencies. At this point I can only make out their outlines and whispers.
1. becoming a religious fundamentalist
2. becoming a post-apocalyptic cannibal warlord religious fundamentalist
Hahahaha... Just kidding, maybe I'll shoot for the sage or saint title.
Through all my struggles for understanding, I always have to seek out the comfort of a Higher power be it part of myself or an external god(s). Why am I living "in the wilderness"? So that I can become closer to God and hear his teachings. That is what keeps me going and it's also what teaches me morals. I personally love looking through scripture because I get lots of revelations but it took years of cross-correlating different religions to figure it out and see the bigger picture.
Really, if I had more discipline, I would eschew trying to make motions in the materialistic world and stick to meditating. Then I could develop my psychic senses more and learn firsthand from the nature/higher realms. There are all kinds of beings surrounding us, they are just outside of our everyday awareness frequencies. At this point I can only make out their outlines and whispers.
