So I'm on day 2 of the schedule. I'm already having come to terms with reality and throw out some of the denial I've been dealing with. My sleep medications are at their minimum effectiveness now, and if I don't drop them tonight for a week I will have withdrawals. I will already have withdrawals but I mean major ones. Controlling my sleep is going to be really rough the next week with no sleep meds and I'm going to be very fatigued from lack of sleep. My biggest challenge will be not to oversleep since without the meds I will probably be stuck until around 1 until I can sleep. With this fatigue I may have to cut down gym time to prevent overtraining. However, I have to stick to the schedule, and even if I have to go there and sit on my ass, I'm going there to solidify the habit. Shit I'll go drive to the parking lot then drive back home if I have to. The good news is though, after the week is up, I can properly cycle the sleep meds for another week and very small doses will be effective again. After that next cycle I should be getting very close to being able to go to sleep around 9 naturally and getting up at 5 will be a breeze even if I'm only actually falling asleep around 10 or 11. If everything goes well, once my 60 day no excuse zone hits I'll only have to use my sleep meds max once every 5 days in the case of accidental caffeine intake, adrenaline release, late workouts, oversleeping, etc.
Thanks! I had to quit a major addicting game as well, but that was some time ago. Things have been much better since. I'm looking to just play starcraft no more than once a day, which has been pretty easy to control. The big problem with any activity on the computer, is I start to get into a "zombie" state to where I've been on it long enough I am only going through an auto-pilot routine of where I don't have a plan, I'm literally just in a trance frittering away time. I want to minimize that with things that contribute to it.
Mainly looking for accountability, self control, persistence...I think it could be used as a path for treating any sort of disorder. Basically a sub for increasing self-treatment ability through these kinds of methods. A sub could be made for BP2, but I'm past where I'd consider myself to be so, but if there's a future demand for it I could help. My friends that have it, were all pretty darn similar to how I was, minus having/had one or two symptoms here or there. I'm looking for programming that will help me stick to my schedule, take away negative associations/dread for things I sometimes feel I "have" to do and replace it with positive thinking because in truth I want to do them, and once I get around to doing them I feel great. It's like going to the gym, sometimes you just don't want to go, but once you go and do it you feel great. I think you get the idea though!
(02-16-2012, 01:18 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: Wow-good luck to you
my life is 1000X better since consistently quitting call of duty
and porn and my highly unstable moods have leveled out a lot.
Thanks! I had to quit a major addicting game as well, but that was some time ago. Things have been much better since. I'm looking to just play starcraft no more than once a day, which has been pretty easy to control. The big problem with any activity on the computer, is I start to get into a "zombie" state to where I've been on it long enough I am only going through an auto-pilot routine of where I don't have a plan, I'm literally just in a trance frittering away time. I want to minimize that with things that contribute to it.
(02-16-2012, 05:26 AM)Shannon Wrote: Very interesting, Keels. It seems these programs are going even more good than I realized.
Are you saying the program we discussed could be used to help people who would be or have been diagnosed with Type II bipolar disorder? Or are you just wanting that to be about accountability for one's actions?
Mainly looking for accountability, self control, persistence...I think it could be used as a path for treating any sort of disorder. Basically a sub for increasing self-treatment ability through these kinds of methods. A sub could be made for BP2, but I'm past where I'd consider myself to be so, but if there's a future demand for it I could help. My friends that have it, were all pretty darn similar to how I was, minus having/had one or two symptoms here or there. I'm looking for programming that will help me stick to my schedule, take away negative associations/dread for things I sometimes feel I "have" to do and replace it with positive thinking because in truth I want to do them, and once I get around to doing them I feel great. It's like going to the gym, sometimes you just don't want to go, but once you go and do it you feel great. I think you get the idea though!
