01-04-2018, 07:03 AM
Feel like I need to play catch-up on my feedback again.
Went out on Saturday. Might've been the day-offset NYE thing, but reading interest in me was easier than ever, and, by my previous standards, that's saying something. A woman who barely took her eyes off of me during half of the night felt the need to come up to me on her way out to say so -- while her guy was waiting for her and while another woman who'd been interested in me for over a year was in the middle of finally professing it. So I was definitely getting attention, and women were overcoming even more interference than usual (including suspicions about the two female friends who'd been dancing with me for most of the night) to show it.
After having given myself over a week off of DMSI since Christmas, I'm going to be switching to SE for my second brief detour from 3.1. Mildly tempted to post a few (mostly philosophical) DMSI-propelled private journal excerpts from the past week or two before I do so, as I find some of them (while lengthy) very telling about my present perspective. I did post a mental bookmark of my current mindset when I paused DMSI to spend a month on UD, after all, so it might be consistent of me to do something similar when pausing DMSI to do SE.
There seem to be enough people discussing SE already that I probably won't journal it myself. I expect to return to 3.2 afterward, but, in the meantime, I need to address my reflex to disagree or apologize when someone compliments me. I can and do suppress the reflex consciously, but I'd rather have a grateful and encouraging response that doesn't require conscious intervention at all. I know that part of that stems from a feeling that I can always be better than I am, but my hope is that SE will help me see (deep down) that "amazing" and "improvable" aren't mutually exclusive.
Went out on Saturday. Might've been the day-offset NYE thing, but reading interest in me was easier than ever, and, by my previous standards, that's saying something. A woman who barely took her eyes off of me during half of the night felt the need to come up to me on her way out to say so -- while her guy was waiting for her and while another woman who'd been interested in me for over a year was in the middle of finally professing it. So I was definitely getting attention, and women were overcoming even more interference than usual (including suspicions about the two female friends who'd been dancing with me for most of the night) to show it.
After having given myself over a week off of DMSI since Christmas, I'm going to be switching to SE for my second brief detour from 3.1. Mildly tempted to post a few (mostly philosophical) DMSI-propelled private journal excerpts from the past week or two before I do so, as I find some of them (while lengthy) very telling about my present perspective. I did post a mental bookmark of my current mindset when I paused DMSI to spend a month on UD, after all, so it might be consistent of me to do something similar when pausing DMSI to do SE.
There seem to be enough people discussing SE already that I probably won't journal it myself. I expect to return to 3.2 afterward, but, in the meantime, I need to address my reflex to disagree or apologize when someone compliments me. I can and do suppress the reflex consciously, but I'd rather have a grateful and encouraging response that doesn't require conscious intervention at all. I know that part of that stems from a feeling that I can always be better than I am, but my hope is that SE will help me see (deep down) that "amazing" and "improvable" aren't mutually exclusive.
