29-12
Im about to severe more ties that hold me, from my point of view, back. people that shove shit down my throat, what is referred by blackdragon as "the prison", blooming self-esteem, being enough, confidence, zen and what not, pretty much goal 2 from what I remember off the top of my head. Im done, no longer going to put up with this crap. My DMSI run has brought this stuff up countless times, yet the literral abundance tht comes with this is crystal clear to me, some fears around it seem to be cleared, The whole "you should follow the rules of society and 9-5"while I perceive it as a pretty much waste of time and small mind thinking. expand, grow, whatever, not just withering away and crap. Again, this is something that irks me, its so futile, but then again, its pretty much black and white thinking, and limits me greatly.
I cant put up anymore with the bs of people wanting to keep me in their matrix so to say. "but it has to be done!"yadayadayada, Im realizing more and more and am willing to say "no more"at this point, telling them off and telling them that they can screech about this all they want, it doesnt affect me, nor does it have any relation to me. I dont play their cards, at all. I have massive oppurtunity in working areas as well.
Self-esteem is a huge one for me, like, self-esteem to stick to my goals, to stick to it and gain enough momentum to snowball my life and the changes. im doing some deep work now. Literally the whole splitting of focus is a huge factor that fucks over. no plan A, B, C ad infinitum. Just plan fucking A and blaze the trail. Otherwise it leads to no-where. Sounds pretty black and white, but focus ios pretty strong as of now.
Im seeing the bs and the maniipulation just clear now. the time wasting. had some anger coming up this morning related to "S", who I dated. She flaked for whatever reason, perhaps I came on to strong, perhaps I was escalating to hard, perhaps she was triggered and perceived me as to much value, who knows, IDC. she flaked when setting up a second date, in which I even spelled it out as to day and time, and still she told "I dont know what date "that is" *facepalm* I didnt even came back after to this shit. i refuse to chase that stuff any longer, just radio silence and let it bleeding to death. Cant even remember the anger about it, came with the realisation fo having shitton of abundance, so thats kinda ironic.
I cant even say fuck women, without having DMSi slap me sideways and fuck me sideways and shove the abundance in my face. fires up the aura like mad tho.
Sorta thinking what my AM6 - > SM3 run wouldve be, i cant help but think that DMSI ( being seduced, women initiating sex ) is somewhat polar opposite to SM3 in ways as it is the other side, regarding both subs. AM6 is go get, while DMSI is all about "being seduced"
This is just my view and understanding at now, my speculation.
Im about to severe more ties that hold me, from my point of view, back. people that shove shit down my throat, what is referred by blackdragon as "the prison", blooming self-esteem, being enough, confidence, zen and what not, pretty much goal 2 from what I remember off the top of my head. Im done, no longer going to put up with this crap. My DMSI run has brought this stuff up countless times, yet the literral abundance tht comes with this is crystal clear to me, some fears around it seem to be cleared, The whole "you should follow the rules of society and 9-5"while I perceive it as a pretty much waste of time and small mind thinking. expand, grow, whatever, not just withering away and crap. Again, this is something that irks me, its so futile, but then again, its pretty much black and white thinking, and limits me greatly.
I cant put up anymore with the bs of people wanting to keep me in their matrix so to say. "but it has to be done!"yadayadayada, Im realizing more and more and am willing to say "no more"at this point, telling them off and telling them that they can screech about this all they want, it doesnt affect me, nor does it have any relation to me. I dont play their cards, at all. I have massive oppurtunity in working areas as well.
Self-esteem is a huge one for me, like, self-esteem to stick to my goals, to stick to it and gain enough momentum to snowball my life and the changes. im doing some deep work now. Literally the whole splitting of focus is a huge factor that fucks over. no plan A, B, C ad infinitum. Just plan fucking A and blaze the trail. Otherwise it leads to no-where. Sounds pretty black and white, but focus ios pretty strong as of now.
Im seeing the bs and the maniipulation just clear now. the time wasting. had some anger coming up this morning related to "S", who I dated. She flaked for whatever reason, perhaps I came on to strong, perhaps I was escalating to hard, perhaps she was triggered and perceived me as to much value, who knows, IDC. she flaked when setting up a second date, in which I even spelled it out as to day and time, and still she told "I dont know what date "that is" *facepalm* I didnt even came back after to this shit. i refuse to chase that stuff any longer, just radio silence and let it bleeding to death. Cant even remember the anger about it, came with the realisation fo having shitton of abundance, so thats kinda ironic.
I cant even say fuck women, without having DMSi slap me sideways and fuck me sideways and shove the abundance in my face. fires up the aura like mad tho.
Sorta thinking what my AM6 - > SM3 run wouldve be, i cant help but think that DMSI ( being seduced, women initiating sex ) is somewhat polar opposite to SM3 in ways as it is the other side, regarding both subs. AM6 is go get, while DMSI is all about "being seduced"
This is just my view and understanding at now, my speculation.
