12-23-2017, 03:40 AM
Ran ARA 5.5G till Day 26 (yesterday). I like it. Having now tried both, I'd recommend it over OF5G. Some notes:
+ It was never instant relief for me. More like when the was playing I'd encounter the anxiety (build up), and then the relief came later. But this one was more clearly aimed at that relief, whereas OF felt like the Sims was always towards the next battle.
+ Still have plenty of work stress, but I have noticed that its more that I stress because there's so much I want to do and problems I want to solve and stuff I want to achieve (instantly), whereas before I felt that underneath but it was masked with this anxiety that I cannot do this and I feel that the cost of making mistakes is somehow less now. I'll kinda jump into things a little more without the preliminary worry about whether or not I'll succeed.
+ Its going much, much better with the gf as compared to when i was on OF. Finally relaxing a little more. But there are so many factors that this is just an observation.
Definite at least another month would've been good. But I feel like gambling a bit, and started on SE lady night. I'm thing either it might dig into the reasons why I feel like I have to always perform so we'll, and improve socially a lot because I've identified for done time ago already that I believe that people don't really like me - and that I push and reject etc against that assumption by default. Or it might not do that much at all, in which case I can return to ARA or DMSI .2.
Merry Christmas to all of you!
+ It was never instant relief for me. More like when the was playing I'd encounter the anxiety (build up), and then the relief came later. But this one was more clearly aimed at that relief, whereas OF felt like the Sims was always towards the next battle.
+ Still have plenty of work stress, but I have noticed that its more that I stress because there's so much I want to do and problems I want to solve and stuff I want to achieve (instantly), whereas before I felt that underneath but it was masked with this anxiety that I cannot do this and I feel that the cost of making mistakes is somehow less now. I'll kinda jump into things a little more without the preliminary worry about whether or not I'll succeed.
+ Its going much, much better with the gf as compared to when i was on OF. Finally relaxing a little more. But there are so many factors that this is just an observation.
Definite at least another month would've been good. But I feel like gambling a bit, and started on SE lady night. I'm thing either it might dig into the reasons why I feel like I have to always perform so we'll, and improve socially a lot because I've identified for done time ago already that I believe that people don't really like me - and that I push and reject etc against that assumption by default. Or it might not do that much at all, in which case I can return to ARA or DMSI .2.
Merry Christmas to all of you!
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
