12-05-2017, 01:45 AM
Running A now for 9 (?) days and Im really agitated, IDGAF high with violent traits. Could be the nofap involved with it. Smoking is being cut off, coffee is somewhat alien, connections to what I see directly involve action and its almost like a non emotional response.
Im feeling hot, confrontational and having racing thoughts and restless. My dreams are increasingly weird, from being attacked by a high speed car chasing me and wanting to hit me in weird but familiar places, aswell as having had a dream of people chanting some sort of mantra tied in the rule 4 stuff.
Its like Im aware I shifted reality and its violently pushing me to catch up now resulting in violent pushing and rampant energy flooding. Im on point but highly confrontational in a "burn all" fashion and frame of mind.
Urges to fap are back. Women keep continuing and I take no less for granted then what I want. No thought, executing directly.
Cutting out addictions and wanting my physique on the best level. Being ripped, having back the v-taper and adonis belt. Im already in the process.
Sleep is disrupted last few days, but when I actually sleep, its deep. Its all pretty much alien right now. Guess A is kicking ass pretty deep. Visualisations ramp up and kick in hard aswell and I start to consciously snipe. Thinking about women causing to manifest them, and damn, theyre hot af. My subc has great taste in that and I love it.
Im feeling hot, confrontational and having racing thoughts and restless. My dreams are increasingly weird, from being attacked by a high speed car chasing me and wanting to hit me in weird but familiar places, aswell as having had a dream of people chanting some sort of mantra tied in the rule 4 stuff.
Its like Im aware I shifted reality and its violently pushing me to catch up now resulting in violent pushing and rampant energy flooding. Im on point but highly confrontational in a "burn all" fashion and frame of mind.
Urges to fap are back. Women keep continuing and I take no less for granted then what I want. No thought, executing directly.
Cutting out addictions and wanting my physique on the best level. Being ripped, having back the v-taper and adonis belt. Im already in the process.
Sleep is disrupted last few days, but when I actually sleep, its deep. Its all pretty much alien right now. Guess A is kicking ass pretty deep. Visualisations ramp up and kick in hard aswell and I start to consciously snipe. Thinking about women causing to manifest them, and damn, theyre hot af. My subc has great taste in that and I love it.
