havent ran DMSi since 4 P.M today, and its now almost 10 P.M. Im having an enormous amount of energy now, lots of realisations flow through me, sense of manifestation and goals, an deeper trust at this point. DMSi is making me a social butterfly, its when I go out today I will go ham, total IDGAF attitude. I still have sexual blocks going on the last few days, I dont know why. like, being triggered when a girl is showing strong sexual interest, and im freezing?! I know Im a sexual guy, and am normally unfiltered about this, the sexual banter and back and forth stuff. A might deal with this, or it is a result of A digging up some things. Im having all kind of goals, plans running through my head, like, almost going for the lolz of it. A might be blooming already now. I have also an growing inner voice that tells me to run B from now on. Like, its met with positive anticipation and curiosity, unlike last time when I was probably in some deep healing cycle.
I want new tattoos.
Im in the process of changing my wardrobe.
Financial Im still improving inner wise.
Lots of things are now a given, like, the gap is almost non existent.
Im back in intersst of piercings.
Im loving shock value.
Im empathizing my looks strongly now aswell, like very clean and dressed sharp.
In the process of adding some things to my bedroom ( or rather, THE bedroom ) As soon as I commit to it, its a done and set deal.
having my focus more back aswell, like, eyes on the prize. A has still more huge potential undiscovered to me, and the h/c can go really freaking deep and changing total core and inner structures, which I believe it does now and currently.
Still somewhat attached to women, like basing shit on it. my frame isnt where I want it to be, autopilot and bantering not at a point hwere it could be and where I want it to be. Like, impulses manifesting and actions of which Im thinking "wtf was that?!"lowering value stuff. there might be a huige fear going round tho. as soon as I somewhat pull back from it, I regain vision of having me as the prize and countless lays of women, like, its insane of how much this process is starting to become automatically and piling up. if only this frame can get dominant in my whole being, it would be great and reflecting in my bodylanguage.
I still do deal with procrastination, like running against a solid wall when actually getting the action on, which in turn does trigger other things in my mind and body.
I want new tattoos.
Im in the process of changing my wardrobe.
Financial Im still improving inner wise.
Lots of things are now a given, like, the gap is almost non existent.
Im back in intersst of piercings.
Im loving shock value.
Im empathizing my looks strongly now aswell, like very clean and dressed sharp.
In the process of adding some things to my bedroom ( or rather, THE bedroom ) As soon as I commit to it, its a done and set deal.
having my focus more back aswell, like, eyes on the prize. A has still more huge potential undiscovered to me, and the h/c can go really freaking deep and changing total core and inner structures, which I believe it does now and currently.
Still somewhat attached to women, like basing shit on it. my frame isnt where I want it to be, autopilot and bantering not at a point hwere it could be and where I want it to be. Like, impulses manifesting and actions of which Im thinking "wtf was that?!"lowering value stuff. there might be a huige fear going round tho. as soon as I somewhat pull back from it, I regain vision of having me as the prize and countless lays of women, like, its insane of how much this process is starting to become automatically and piling up. if only this frame can get dominant in my whole being, it would be great and reflecting in my bodylanguage.
I still do deal with procrastination, like running against a solid wall when actually getting the action on, which in turn does trigger other things in my mind and body.
