11-11-2017, 10:38 AM
I think more and more the real issues are surfacing. I'm gonna have to eat my words with that last post. By trying to shove healing through yet another narrow viewpoint I've sabotaged myself. I'm trying to figure this out too much and that's where I'm messing up. Consciously intervening to cut things off when I feel it's getting too intense or scary for me.
This is how resistance manifests for me I guess. Overthinking, doubt, rumination, and trying to obtain control of a process that needs to be left alone. I'm not even gonna go into what real healing is because that's just another trap. I'm just gonna leave all this alone and try to focus on my life more instead of being so inwardly focused.
I know at the root of all this though is that fear of not being good enough that leaves me isolated and untrusting of others.
This is how resistance manifests for me I guess. Overthinking, doubt, rumination, and trying to obtain control of a process that needs to be left alone. I'm not even gonna go into what real healing is because that's just another trap. I'm just gonna leave all this alone and try to focus on my life more instead of being so inwardly focused.
I know at the root of all this though is that fear of not being good enough that leaves me isolated and untrusting of others.
INFP
