10-09-2017, 06:29 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-09-2017, 06:32 AM by DavisMind91.)
Now taking things up to 7 loops. Haven’t got an actual chance to approach a woman yet but I’m not too worried about it, I’m sure it’ll happen without me looking for it. I notice a motivation building up to be more proactive as well. Last night my daughter was picked up by my wife, I won’t go deep into details since this is more of a conversation to be had with her but she seems to call herself “catching me slipping” in regards to care for our daughter for yesterday and trying to call me out on it in which I gave a solid reply to let her know she was mistaken. I’m not even going to harp on her lack of mothering skills. She’s not the worst mom but she definitely doesn’t give 100%.
I was tempted to call her and start an argument, especially since she didn’t say anything to my face which was very odd. Makes me think that someone else pointed it out and thought she should “speak up”. Rather than wasting my time mentioning how basically nothing was done for my child on Saturday when I picked up, I just decided to do it all myself since talking doesn’t change anything. For some reason I also decided that I’d start taking detailed notice of certain things she does instead of arguing about every little thing. Mind you I’m not doing this just so I have some type of Ammo for our next argument which I’m sure will be had before the end of this year, but also really starting to take notice and pay more attention to why I don’t want to be with her anymore.
This choice is to remind myself that despite our history she has a lot more work to do at this point than I do. In fact, I’m even more hesitant because I’m almost certain that by this time next year we’ll be completely incompatible because there may be nothing about her I find redeeming anymore, especially after I’m done with AM6. Sometimes for only a few seconds I entertain the thought of saving my marriage, but every time I quickly shut those thoughts down. At times I feel like I’m just being stubborn just because I don’t want to give up but if things aren’t good for the long term then screw it.
I was tempted to call her and start an argument, especially since she didn’t say anything to my face which was very odd. Makes me think that someone else pointed it out and thought she should “speak up”. Rather than wasting my time mentioning how basically nothing was done for my child on Saturday when I picked up, I just decided to do it all myself since talking doesn’t change anything. For some reason I also decided that I’d start taking detailed notice of certain things she does instead of arguing about every little thing. Mind you I’m not doing this just so I have some type of Ammo for our next argument which I’m sure will be had before the end of this year, but also really starting to take notice and pay more attention to why I don’t want to be with her anymore.
This choice is to remind myself that despite our history she has a lot more work to do at this point than I do. In fact, I’m even more hesitant because I’m almost certain that by this time next year we’ll be completely incompatible because there may be nothing about her I find redeeming anymore, especially after I’m done with AM6. Sometimes for only a few seconds I entertain the thought of saving my marriage, but every time I quickly shut those thoughts down. At times I feel like I’m just being stubborn just because I don’t want to give up but if things aren’t good for the long term then screw it.
