10-06-2017, 10:49 PM
It's been soooo long since my last post. Well, I have had too much going on. Depression (got on medication), not being able to finish the paper in time (had to get an extension), and many other issues.
Therefore, I stopped listening DMSI. Besides, I was definitely not in a position to get laid. Also, I won't be start listening DMSI any time soon, and maybe not until the final version is released as I won't be in a situation where I can have sex. (It's complicated and personal, so I won't get into detail to how and why that is the case.)
Anyway, I thought to report that here.
Meanwhile, I think I would report what I have noticed after several months of being off DMSI.
First, my sex drive has gone lower. Well, during the depression, it was non existent. I even felt I am much better off being alone. Now, the level isn't that low, but I don't crave sex. The desire for sex or sex drive is definitely lower than being on DMSI. However, I'd like to point out that my desire for sex during DMSI was fluctuating. Very high, low, and etc. (I suppose more specifically, the desire for girl and having a relationship may be more accurate than desire for sex)
Second, I have very low need for masturbation or getting off the sexual needs. I've been not masturbating for a long period of time. (I lost count). What's different from DMSI time was that while I was doing DMSI, I would be able to hold off for a week or so, but then I definitely need to get it off, otherwise it was driving me nuts. Now, I have no need to get it off. Yet, I'd like to also point out that I found that my need for sex was decreased after I began DMSI. I also wonder if this is perhaps a sign that I am aging. (although I have a few years to hit 30.)
These are what I found to be different since I got off DMSI. (It's been quite a while, as you can see from my last post)
Lastly, I am thinking that getting a girl and sex shouldn't be and wouldn't be difficult, once all of the stuff is finalized and settled down. I will only need to get my self out there, which means developing a hobby (or hobbies), a job, or whatever that can get me to meet people, and I need to do it consistently. Unfortunately, I am not in a condition to do that, nor will I be anytime soon. (Again, for personal issue, so I won't share it.) Also, this is one of the hardest challenge to overcome due to my autism.
Anyway, I remembered several incidences in my life in which girls had shown interests in me, except that I didn't follow (or I couldn't, or I blew up or whatever.) Hence, I am not worried, should the choice, opportunity, and desire to arise in the future. Yet, I know that for now and for some near future (which could be up to several years), that opportunity wouldn't come, unfortunately.
This is the end of my post and potentially the thread. Thank you for those who read the journal.
Therefore, I stopped listening DMSI. Besides, I was definitely not in a position to get laid. Also, I won't be start listening DMSI any time soon, and maybe not until the final version is released as I won't be in a situation where I can have sex. (It's complicated and personal, so I won't get into detail to how and why that is the case.)
Anyway, I thought to report that here.
Meanwhile, I think I would report what I have noticed after several months of being off DMSI.
First, my sex drive has gone lower. Well, during the depression, it was non existent. I even felt I am much better off being alone. Now, the level isn't that low, but I don't crave sex. The desire for sex or sex drive is definitely lower than being on DMSI. However, I'd like to point out that my desire for sex during DMSI was fluctuating. Very high, low, and etc. (I suppose more specifically, the desire for girl and having a relationship may be more accurate than desire for sex)
Second, I have very low need for masturbation or getting off the sexual needs. I've been not masturbating for a long period of time. (I lost count). What's different from DMSI time was that while I was doing DMSI, I would be able to hold off for a week or so, but then I definitely need to get it off, otherwise it was driving me nuts. Now, I have no need to get it off. Yet, I'd like to also point out that I found that my need for sex was decreased after I began DMSI. I also wonder if this is perhaps a sign that I am aging. (although I have a few years to hit 30.)
These are what I found to be different since I got off DMSI. (It's been quite a while, as you can see from my last post)
Lastly, I am thinking that getting a girl and sex shouldn't be and wouldn't be difficult, once all of the stuff is finalized and settled down. I will only need to get my self out there, which means developing a hobby (or hobbies), a job, or whatever that can get me to meet people, and I need to do it consistently. Unfortunately, I am not in a condition to do that, nor will I be anytime soon. (Again, for personal issue, so I won't share it.) Also, this is one of the hardest challenge to overcome due to my autism.
Anyway, I remembered several incidences in my life in which girls had shown interests in me, except that I didn't follow (or I couldn't, or I blew up or whatever.) Hence, I am not worried, should the choice, opportunity, and desire to arise in the future. Yet, I know that for now and for some near future (which could be up to several years), that opportunity wouldn't come, unfortunately.
This is the end of my post and potentially the thread. Thank you for those who read the journal.
