09-28-2017, 05:17 AM
Day 13
Haven't slept well two nights in a row now, so have become a walking zombie today. Not only am I tired, but my whole body aches, and my brain isn't operating correctly.
My extreme willpower when it came to diet, exercise and learning during my MLS run has definitely weakened.
I'm going through some existential crisis moments. Wondering what I want to do with life.
I've decided that the best thing in life to do is the thing that makes you feel good. This is often interpreted as selfish, but you can't make others feel good unless you feel good first.
Because I have quite a nihilistic view on life, my thinking that nothing really matters anyway and so what's the point of achieving anything makes it really difficult to get passionate about anything. So I'm thinking my goal in life should just be as happy as possible, and to spread my happiness to as many others as I can via my interactions with them and state transference.
The problem is, I'm still not really sure what makes me happy in life. It's something I need to ponder, but I'm so fucking tired lately it's hard to even think straight about anything.
Haven't slept well two nights in a row now, so have become a walking zombie today. Not only am I tired, but my whole body aches, and my brain isn't operating correctly.
My extreme willpower when it came to diet, exercise and learning during my MLS run has definitely weakened.
I'm going through some existential crisis moments. Wondering what I want to do with life.
I've decided that the best thing in life to do is the thing that makes you feel good. This is often interpreted as selfish, but you can't make others feel good unless you feel good first.
Because I have quite a nihilistic view on life, my thinking that nothing really matters anyway and so what's the point of achieving anything makes it really difficult to get passionate about anything. So I'm thinking my goal in life should just be as happy as possible, and to spread my happiness to as many others as I can via my interactions with them and state transference.
The problem is, I'm still not really sure what makes me happy in life. It's something I need to ponder, but I'm so fucking tired lately it's hard to even think straight about anything.
