09-22-2017, 01:10 AM
' Wrote:I was at the grocery store to get some stuff. I am seeing my body language, people's reactions, and I'm seeing it in my heart of hearts: I'm so very disconnected from meaningful relationships. I noticed I was "proud" as I left, thinking I looked good, that noone knew me.
I noticed it as I got back on my scooter, my "leave me alone" machine. I get to hide from interaction under a front of "I'm saving money". Even while getting my gear on to ride, I knew I'd carried a pride for many years that "you can't come close to me (the real me)". It's a protective front, for I feel it nearly every time I ride.
I hear you man, especially the bold parts really click to me. Even if it is not money for me but I am not sure what it really is.
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
