09-18-2017, 02:18 AM
Did what was previously unthinkable for pre-AF me: was completely honest with my best friend about how I feel about him (spoiler alert: it's not platonic). Ordinarily I'd have kept my little love nugget to myself but I had no fear or hesitation in telling him. I would normally have kept quiet out of fear of losing the friendship or just looking like a goose, but not now. I'm really glad that I'm finding my voice. In the past I've always been exceptionally backward at speaking about any emotion. I can yap about banal crud happily but to tell even my partner that I was upset or hurt was impossible. Literally...when I left him he was shocked because in 7 years I had never indicated how unhappy I was nor admitted that I had only sisterly love for him. So yay me for telling my dream man I love him.
